Save me from myself

Alone

I'm not sure when it started, or why it is so strong.

On the outside I seem happy. No one thinks anything's wrong.

But on the inside I am dying, screaming for someone to see

That the happy smile and carefree laugh is not the real me.

I've never been happy, not that I can recall.

Between the world and myself I've built up a wall.

I don't know why I'm like this, it makes no sense to me.

I actually come from a very close and loving family.

But even they have no idea of the hell I endure.

They think I'm happy and normal; of this I am sure.

I can't take it much longer, I can't live like this! 

I want to feel truly happy, that is my biggest wish. 

I need help, but who will help me? Who could comprehend?

Is there anyone out there who can help bring this to an end?

Or am I simply trapped, a prisoner of despair?

Am I really all alone? Is there no hope for me out there?

I'm so lost, please help me! I can't do this alone!

I need someone in my corner, a friend to call my own. 

Please help me.