𝑇𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒 𝑂𝑓 𝑃𝑎𝑖𝑛 {Seo Changbin}

° • CHAPTER 8 • °

"C-changbin?" you asked rising your head startled

"Y/n... i'm so sorry" he said as he checked on you

"Are you hurt?" he asked concerned

"I'm fine..i just..don't have anything to get changed to" you replied as he immediatly took off his hoodie

"Wear this" he said lending it to you

"You don't have to.." you said

"Please, just wear it. It's my fault this happened. I'm sor-" you cut off his words

"Here you go again..Why would you apologize? It's not your fault cause i didn't even expect you to actually help me. Stop saying you're sorry, it makes me feel like a monster.." you said with tears in your eyes

"Ok. Got it, i won't say that again. But please don't cry.. i'd like to see you smile" he said with worried eyes

"I'm ok." you said wiping your tears

"You're far from ok y/n. You don't have to hide it." he said with his deep but warm voice

"I said i'm ok." you replied

"Let's go drink something warm at the cafeteria" he said offering his hand to help you stand up

"Let's hurry up then. I don't want to be seen, i look awful"
you said standing up by yourself, walking toward the door.

Changbin's hoodie had his scent and you really liked it, you felt warm, just as you were in his embrace.

"This coffee is really good, you should try it" he said excited

"Sure" you replied

You were staring at the cloudy sky as Changbin was staring at you

"What?" you asked turning to him

"Nothing" he said looking away embarrassed

"Let's drink and go back to class, it's almost time" you said

"I wish i could go home, i'm so tired" he said sighing
You agreed.

You went to the bus stop together, then split up

"See you tomorrow y/n" Chanbin said
"But tomorrow is sunday" you said
"So what? We can't see eachother if not for school?" he said
"Yeah we can.. It's just that i'd rather sleep" you said
"Ok then. See you by 3pm." he said and ran away

You woke up at 5am then fell asleep again until 12pm

"I don't really feel like going out..why is he doing that to me? It's not that we're friends or anything." you said as you were making your lunch

You then thought about him and started smiling. You slapped yourself in disbelief.

"Y/n what the hell are you thinking? I must be crazy."

You couldn't stop thinking of him.
You were feeling butterflies after a very long time, so it felt weird.

"What should I wear? Mhhh this shirt looks good" you said as you were looking for something to put on

You were wearing a light pink shirt with a jeans skirt and white sneakers.

• 2:40pm •

"I better hurry up" you said to yourself

[ 1 NEW MESSAGE FROM "Seo Changbin" ]

Changbin: Hey. I'll be waiting at this cafe. {link to the location}

You reached the cafe.

"Y/n!" he said while waving at you with a smile
"Wow, you're different" he said looking at your outfit
"Different?" you asked
"Yes i mean.. you're pretty" he said chuckling in embarrassment
"Thank you" you said biting your lips a little feeling your cheeks blush
"Why did you want to meet me?" you asked as you two sat down
"Let's order something first" he said
"For me a cappuccino please" you said
"I'll take the same, thank you" he said to the waitress
"Now tell me" you said
"I didn't want to leave you all by yourself" he replied
"What?" you said
"In case you would hurt yourself again. I wanted to distract you from your thoughts." he said making eye contact
"What if i feel uncomfortable being around you?" you said without even thinking
"Do you?" For real?" he asked with a shaky voice
"Yes" you said already regretting it
"Oh..I didn't think you would feel this way" he said looking down to his drink playing with his fingers
"But I know you're saying that because you want to be left alone. That won't happen. At least not as long as i'm alive. Y/n, what you need now is someone who you can trust and rely on." he said looking at you again
"I just can't" you said
"Do what?" he asked perplexed
"Trust someone again." you replied lowering your gaze as tears were forming into your eyes
"Why?" he asked with a soft voice
"It's just...just.." you said while sobbing
"It's ok. You don't have to say it" he said taking your hand to hold it

He grabbed a tissue to wipe off your tears

"Sorry, it's still an open cut..." you said
"It's fine, you don't have to say it" he said

Few weeks went by

You were bullied everyday to the point you were exausted. Your wrists were covered of fresh cuts everyday. They hurt as hell but you couldn't care less
You kept ignoring Changbin cuz you couldn't face him.

[ 4 NEW MESSAGES FROM "Seo Changbin" ]

- y/n please pick up the phone.

-I know it must be hurting af but don't ever think about doing something stupid. It's not your fault y/n. Got it??

-If you're reading this, i wanted to let you know that i really care about you and don't wanna lose you.

-You might think you're alone but y/n, trust me you're not.

You were trapped in you thoughts. You were scared. Too scared to go to school. You couldn't bare the pain of being bullied and humiliated anymore. You were sick of it.
You were a bloody mess everytime. The bathtub was covered with bloody fingerprints.
You didn't sleep nor eat.
You threw up from time to time. Your body was really weak, so you took a leave from school.

Changbin barged into your house
But as you called his name, you passed out on the bathroom floor.