Unfamiliar Feeling Called, Love?

Chapter 21

KISHA's PoV

Tapos na ang party, now, I'm just waiting for my personal driver na magte-text lang ako sa kanya if magpapasundo ako. I just got something to do for my mom's arrival this Christmas season. I just want her to feel that she always had a special place in my heart and that I'm always here for her after what happened to our family.

I know she changed a lot, but, I'm still willing to do what it takes just to bring back the mom I used to know before, before my dad left us and died.

"Ma'am kelan n'yo po ba kukunin yung orders n'yo?" the staff who's in front of me asked me.

Nasa isang mug shop ako ngayon, I'm here para magpapersonalize ng mugs for my mother.

"Matatapos n'yo ba siya days or weeks before Christmas eve?" I asked.

"Yes ma'am, we can assure you that 3 days before Christmas eve makukuha n'yo na po siya."

I decided na lumabas na sa shop na iyon after fixing all the transactions. The moment I was able to get out through the glass door ay natigilan ako nang may nakasalubong.

"Punyeta, ikaw na naman?" I cursed upon looking at this person. Si Jhared, na natigilan rin nang napansin ako.

"Oh." tanging lumabas sa bibig niya.

Sumimangot ako at tinanong siya, "Are you following me?"

"No, I just passed by here after buying something." he answered, I looked at his hands, may bitbit nga siyang isang cellophane ng isang box of a specific Chinese candle.

"'Di ba para sa dead people yan? Para kanino?" ewan ko pero naintriga lang ako.

He looked away, silence shortly occupied the entire atmosphere except for the noises that were coming from the busy vehicles on the streets.

I remained silent and waited for him to speak up, "For my parents."

That somehow shocked me.

Patay na sina tita Jinky at tito Yang? How come?!

"I... I didn't know." I looked down.

I can't even look at his eyes. Ewan ko ba but I feel so much awa for him. Who would ever thought he had such a life.

"It's alright Kisha."

Nagtaas na ang ng tingin sa kanya.

Now I know, behind these cold eyes of him was sadness na hindi ko man lang nakita sa kanya. Somehow, I felt guilty of being so mean to him.

Arrrgh but am I required to feel this way? Tsk. Hindi naman ako ganito sa kanya dati ah! I'm Zaxisha, the mean and so-called narcissistic Zaxisha.

"Don't look at me like that." natauhan ako when Jhared said that.

"Don't pity me." sabi pa niya.

"Hey, why does it seem you're so good in hiding your emotions huh?"
"Hindi ka naman like that no'ng mga kids pa tayo." sunod-sunod na pandidiretsa ko sa kanya.

He sighed, "Why do you even ask? Do you care about me-"

"Of course I do!" I yelled, potek ano daw?

"-I mean no. I mean yes, NO! Aaagghh! Kaklase kita and you're under my responsibility kaya. You're annoying me na naman eh."

I heard him chuckled short. I gulped for it was my first time seeing me smile again since time has grown us up.

Umiwas ako sa kanya ng tingin, his smile tho... it's rare... and it's... it's affecting me. Bwesit.