Calum
I woke up from the best night of sleep I've had in a while, but I had a sinking feelnig in my stomach. I ignored it and proceeded to get ready for the day. I walked out of my room with a real smile on my face, until I saw the boys's faces.
"What?" I asked, the smile slowly disappearing from my face.
"It's Hannah." Luke blurted, earning himself a punch from Michael.
"What about her?" I asked, trying to sound as casual as possible. Did she finally call and ask for me? Could it be that she wanted me back?
"She uh.. she was in an accident... she didn't make it Cal..." Ashton told me and I could feel my heartbreaking. I felt my body go numb and stumbled to a chair, taking a seat with my head in my hands.
"No. This can't be happening. She can't be gone." I sobbed. Luke tried to pull me in for comfort, but I pulled away harshly.
"This can't be happening! She was my everything and now... Now she's gone! I've lost her all over again!", I screamed at the top of my lungs before falling to my knees. Luke tried to pull me in once again and this time I didn't resist. I was empty inside and barely realized I was crying until I felt one of my tears fall on my shirt and soon the boys were crying too. We had all lost someone special, not just me. She had touched us all in different ways and nothing was ever going to be the same now. Luke finally let go and Michael suggested we play Fifa for a bit. I didn't respond and the boys shared worried looks as I made my way to the kitchen. I got a glass of water and headed to my room. I didn't bother to change before crawling into the covers. I decided I needed to send a tweet out.
@Calum5SOS: R.I.P. Hannah... We all love and miss you, I hope you're somewhere great now... </3
I got hundreds of retweets and replies immideatly, but I ignored them all and shut my phone off.I sipped my water as I picked up my laptop and started to look through pictures of Hannah. There was one that made me cry, we were on the beach, she had wanted to tan and I wanted to swim with her. I had picked her up by her waist and she was struggling to get away as Ashton snapped the picture. I smiled at the memory. She was somewhere better now. Happy and not hurting or dealing with any bullshit anymore. I went to my window and looked up at the sky.
"I will always love you. You'll always have a small part of my heart, even if I find someone else, I don't think I could ever love them more than I love you." I whispered. I felt a tear slip, but no more came. I was all cried out. She wasn't coming back and tears definately weren't going to change that.
I picked up my phone and dialed her number, I had to hear her voice one last time. I smiled as the familiar sound filled my ears. I sighed and deleted our texts and her number, it hurt to much to look at them. I put all of the pictures of her on my laptop from my phone, then deleted those off my phone too.
I finally changed into sweatpants and threw a beanie on, climbing under the covers once again, deciding to take a nap before the boys and I had to go anywhere or they decided to drag me somewhere. I slowly drifted into a sleep filled with memories of Hannah.
"Calum what are you doing?" Hannah yelped as I picked her up from the blanket we had set out for our picnic. I ignored her as I raced down the hill with her over my shoulder. She laughed and playfully punched my back as I ran. When we were close to the bottom I tripped and she went flying out of my hands.
"Hannah!" I shouted as I crawled over to see if she was okay. i checked her face and body for any sign of injury which made her giggle at me.
"Cal, Calum, Calum Hood! I'm fine!" She laughed.
"I didn't mean to baby, I'm so so-" I didn't get to finish my sentence because she decided to kiss my right then and there.
"I'm fine, nothing will ever hurt me as long as I'm with you." She smiled and pulled me in for another kiss.....
I woke up to Michael jumping on my bed. I pushed him off and cuddled into my pillow more. I wasn't finished with my dream and just wanted to sleep.
"We're going to the studio. Wake up ya lazy ass." Michael yelled, leaving my door wide open as he walked out of my room. I sighed and got up, seeing as it was better not to argue with him. I didn't have it in me to change so I just sprayed a little cologne and made my way out to the car. I leaned on Luke's shoulder as we drove to the studio. He leaned his head on mine and took a picture for Twitter. I got a notification from Luke and one of Michael's smart ass response. I smiled a little and ignored them, staring out the window, thinking of her.
Once we got to the studio we recorded a few songs and then I had a little time off while Mike and Ash wrote. I decided to go to a coffee shop and took a seat in the back corner. I smiled to myself as I looked out the window on this beautiful day. I was seeing Hannah in everything. Her favorite color, coffee, muffins. She was everywhere I looked, but for some reason I could function without crying.
I sighed as the waiter brought me my coffee. I gave him a small smile and thanked him. He returned a bright smile and walked away, leaving me alone with my thoughts once again. I pulled out my phone and texted Luke asking him to pick me up at the coffee shop. He replied and said he'd be there soon, so I sat back and prepared to wait for his lazy ass.
I sipped my coffee and stared out the window as a few girls came into the cafe. I inwardly groaned when I noticed their stares and whispers. I love the fans, don't get me wrong, but I just wasn't in the mood for talking to anyone at the time, especially if it had to do with Hannah. I heard the whispers getting louder and then one shout, "Adrian no!". I looked up just in time to be pulled into a giant bear hug.
"I'm sorry about Hannah." The shy voice said. I looked up to see a girl with short, blonde hair wearing a plain v-neck and some shorts. She was very beautiful to say the least.
"Thanks." I said with a small smile, "Most fans would be too shy to do that."
"Well I'm not most fans. I'm Adrian, I already know who you are and I hope you're doing okay." She said sliding into the seat across from me. I admired her outgoing personality.
"I'm fine." I think I was trying to convince myself more than I was her.
"Well if you ever need someone, I've been through something like this." She slip a piece of paper across the table, hugged me, and went to join her friends who were now bombarding her with questions.
Just then Luke walked in and pulled me out of my seat. I glanced over my shoulder to catch her staring. She gave me a small smile and wave and I returned the favor. She quickly looked away and Luke caught me staring, confused because no one was looking at us.
"You sure are a weird one Cal."
