My Brother's Best Friend

7: My Brother's Best Friend

chapter 7

Joel has electric blue eyes and light brown hair, oh he's so gorgeous. He's got a cheeky smile that lifts up at the right and his teeth are so white it blinds you. We were dancing with everyone for a while. I felt his head gently rest on my shoulder, "It's so stuffy, wanna get a drink?" he turned me so I was facing him, it was pretty sexy, "Yeah sure, I can't breathe!" He grabbed my hand and lead me inside. Not surprisingly, all my friends and boyfriends were in there about to do shots, "Ayyyyy! Shots for the new couple?!" Christian was a bit drunk, "Honey I think you've had enough," Christie was sitting on him, "Want to join in?" Joel asked me, "Sure," I smiled at him.

"Mind if we join too?" I turned around, Talen and his horse face Sara, "You don't mind Lonely?" Sara gave me the look, "Do I look lonely to you?" I put my arm around Joel's waist and he put his arm over my shoulder. Sara laughed, "Whatever, I'm not doing shots with you losers," 

"No one gives a shit what you do!" Yep, Dez was drunk too, since she kept trying to lick her elbow, "Seriously Noah, why did you let his heartbreaker bring her?" She pointed at Talen. Oh no she called him a heartbreaker, great one, "Heartbreaker? How is he a heartbreaker?" Noah looked a tad confused, he looked at Talen, "I don't know man, your girl is a tad tipsy," 

"Guy shut up and lets do these shots already, they're not going to drink themselves!" Dale was holding his shot of vodka up in the air. Sammy, Jake, Christie, Christian, Noah, Dez, Dale, Anika, Joel, Talen and myself all picked up our shots, "Too the young crazy life we share!" Sammy thought she was a hero of some sort, "And no matter what it takes, I will lick my elbow!" It was Dezs destiny, to lick her elbow. To be honest I didn't think having that shot was the best for her, but she would sober up soon.. hopefully! "Cheers!" We all through out shots back. I didn't even like vodka, it burns on the way down to your stomach, but I did like how it gave you that warm feelings. "Oooh man that shit burns!" Joel leaned over the counter and looked at me, "..Whaaat?" I did the flirt hold-the-word thing and nudged him, "Nothing.. you're just beautiful," I felt myself blush, "Joel stop being a boring lovey-dovey and have another with us!"

"Go, I'll go chill with the girls for a bit,"

"Okay, I'll come get you soon," He kissed me on the cheek.

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The girls were all sitting on the couch talking, "What're you guys talking about?"

"Joel!" Sammy slapped my leg, 

Anika: "He's pretty cute,"

Christie: "Mmm... yeah.. I'd give him a 9.275 out of 10,"

Dez: "Those eyes, oh my gosh! Oh damn... I have a boyfriend," She frowned, "Haha, guys, it's only 9 o'clock, lets not rush me into anything,"

"Why not Lena? If Joel wants you, you better take your chance because Talen doesn't,"It appears that Sara has returned with her little puppies. Christie slammed her cup on the table. Christie was not afraid to stand up to a cow like Sara, "Okay listen missy!" I pulled Christie down before she glasses Sara in the face, not that I have a problem with that or anything but I can handle this on my own, "Sara we're trying to have a good time like friends do, can you please not ruin our night?" I asked her very nicely, and if she didn't get the message I will happily glass her face, "Well stay away from Talen," She started to walk away, "Sara, I told you to leave her alone! Shows how much you want to be with me!" Talen had heard the whole conversation, I didn't notice him standing at the door to the backyard, "Talen you just took shots with her I don't want her getting the wrong idea," She tried to touch his face but he pushed her hand away, "Sara I'm sick of this! I'm sick of you trying to control who I'm friends with, who I talk to, who I take shots with, for crying out loud I can do whatever the fuck I want!" The music stopped and EVERYONE was listening in on their conversation, "What? Are you breaking up with me?" Sara started to tear up, she started to march at me, "This is all your fault! You can't stay away can you!?" she tried to punch me, but I got up off the couch and pushed her over the coffee table, "Lena please don't--"

"Shut up Talen! I'll do what I want!"

Sara got up and fixed her skirt, she tried to hit me again but Talen was holding her back. How dare this bitch try and hurt me? 

I was being held back by Joel, where he came from, "Relax she's not worth it! Calm down!"

"She is so worth it!" I elbowed him in the chest and he let go of me. Sara some how managed to get out of Talen's hands and she slapped me straight across the face, "Oooooooo!" the crowd seemed to find that entertaining, "That was cute, did you learn that in a hair tutorial? Maybe you can link me on facebook," I grabbed her by her top and threw her across the room, she smacked into the book shelf, "Lena please stop it!" Talen grabbed my arm "Talen let go of me! You're hurting me!" he pulled me up the stairs and threw me into the first room on the left, which was Noahs room, "What the hell Talen!?" I pushed his chest, a push for every word, "You're-a-f*cking-ass-hole-Talen!" 

"What were you thinking!? Going back to your old habits? Do you think Jonathan would want this!? Huh!?" Talen grabbed my wrists. He was yelling so loud I bet everyone could here us downstairs. He thought I was going to stop now that he mentioned my dead brother which only aggravated me more, "Do-not-talk-about-my-dead-brother!" I was hitting him in the chest so hard my hands were going to start bleeding. I saw pain in his green eyes, like he was trying to tell me something. If he wanted to tell me something he can use his mouth for that.

I fell to the floor. I hate to admit it but he was right. Jonathan wouldn't want this. I don't want my brother looking down at me and being ashamed. After his death I did go a bit psycho. I was suspended from school four times for fighting, a fifth time and a would've been expelled. I hurt a lot of people and I wish I could take it back. I now have a reputation for being aggressive, thats why everyone stays away from me, until today. 

Talen never judged me for what I turned into after Jonathan's death. It wasn't just Anton that I cried on, it was Talen too. I couldn't stay mad at him, but still, this was Talen and I am not showing him I am weak or every beat of my heart... is for him.