Just Stay (KathNiel) [Finished]

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

She was smiling while waving her right hand at me. I was already decided but seeing her faking her smile made me undecided.

I hurriedly went to her and hugged her very tight.

"Two years, Alexandra. Two years," I repeatedly said.

She nodded her head and kissed my cheek. "I will wait for you."

I stared at her for a long time, as if memorizing every details of her face. But honestly, if only I can draw, I will surely make a perfect sketch of her face without copying a picture of her.

"I love you, Otep."

I felt my eyes watered while seeing her tears. Two years are ten long years for me, especially when she's not with me.

"I love you, Alexandra. See you at the altar after two years."

Alexandra's eyes widened as I said those words. Then slowly...tears were running down her face again.

My wedding proposal, for others, was far from romantic, there were no diamonds nor a grand preparation. But I was very sure of my feelings and decisions.

"Tatandaan ko iyan, Otep. Two years lang ha? Kapag nalate ka hindi kita papakasalan, sige ka," she said.

God knew how much I wanted to stay but I need to work and save money for our future. I wasn't born rich, unlike Alexandra.

"I love you," I said.

She smiled again and wiped her own tears.

"Mag-iingat ka at siguraduhin mong lagi kang kakain sa oras. Hindi kita pakakasalan kapag nangangayayat ka. Hindi ako nagbibiro, Joseph Mallari!"

I shook my head slightly while trying my best not to laugh. I knew she was not serious.

"I love you," I said again. Her face became more serious.

"Ang hirap kasi, Otep, e. Ngayon lang tayo maghihiwalay ng ganoon kalayo," she said.

Tuluyan na akong naiyak pero agad ko ding pinunasan iyon. Mahirap talaga pero iyon ang kailangan kong gawin.

"Mag-iipon lang ako pagkatapos hindi na tayo magkakahiwalay ulit," I said before I calimed her lips once again.

"I love you, Alexandra. Will see you again after two years."
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Tahimik kong inaalala ang mga iyon habang binabantayan si Alexandra.

Minsan naiisip ko na sa dami ng tao ay bakit siya? Sa loob ng ospital na ito...ilan kaya kaming humihiling na sana ibang tao na lang?

I know God has reasons but I don't know if I can accept the reasons. I am not mad, I just can't understand.

"Hindi ako nalate at lalong hindi ako nangayayat. Magdadalawang taon na bukas, gumising ka na d'yan, Alexandra. Nasosobrahan ka na sa tulog."

Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at dinama iyon.

I wan't forever with this girl, Lord. That's my longest prayer until now.

May ibang tao siguro na kung nasa sitwasyon ko sila ay iisipin nilang sana ay sila ang nakahiga sa kamang iyon. Pero iba ako. Ayaw ko ring maramdaman ni Alexandra ang nararamdaman kong sakit ngayon.

I remember a movie says, "It's the worst torture in the world, waiting when you know there is nothing else you can do."

Yumuko ako sa kama habang nakahawak pa rin sa kamay niya. Lagi kong pinipigilan na umiyak kapag nasa loob ng kwartong ito pero ngayon hindi ko na mapigilan. I can accept all the pain...but not this one.

Alexandra...they want me to set you free. Dalawang araw na lang pero umaasa pa rin akong gigising ka.

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A/N: short ud. Believe it or not, isang chapter na lang po bago ang Epilogue. Hehe love you!