~MIKA
I have been prancing back and forth our receiving area. It was early morning and I was about to leave for school. One week na since Tin, Kim and I went to Encore. I have been convincing myself that I am not bothered by this Ravena guy. Ulit ulit kong sinasabe sa sarili ko na hindi siya ang makakapagpa uneasy saken. Hindi ang kagaya nya ang makakapagpa ramdam sa akin ng anxiety. He will be one of the knights in my list of chess. I am the Queen. Ako ang makaka checkmate sa hari.
I received a call the night before. After giving up and settling myself that nothing will ever happen, it seems I am now on pins and needles.
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I woke up having a very heavy head. Hindi naman ako nasusuka pero nahihilo paren ako. I let my eyes get used to the light in my room. Tinignan ko ang relong suot ko for the time. 9 AM na pala. Since wala naman akong pasok today, hindi ko minadali ang sarili kong bumangon. I pondered on what happened last night. Naalala ko na I danced with Ryan and had a few more drinks until yayain ako umuwi ni Tin and Kim. In a way exit ko na din yun dahil eversince I laid my eyes on the King Eagle, I had been thinking of him the whole night.
His name will be one for the books. Another name off my list.
Nang maalala ko si Ravena, napabalikwas ako sa kama. I headed to my rest room and showered. Kumakanta kanta pa ako while thinking of people that we both know. Common friends.
Ang concern ko ngayon ay kung paano ko kukunin sa kanila ang number ni Ravena without sounding too needy.
"Bahala na nga" and I rinsed my hair.
I was dressing up when someone knocked on my door.
"Saglit lang, nagbibihis ako" I shouted
Nagmadali akong nagbihis and took my brush. I was doing my hair when I opened the door.
Mama was by my door looking worried
"Anong oras ka na nakauwi?" mama asked. I did not offer my room. I just left a crack on my door, silently implying she is not welcome. I hate it when mama is this way.
"Hindi ko na po maalala ma. Pero ok naman po ako nakauwi. Hinatid ako ni Kim" I sheepishly replied
Mama looked down the floor. I know may gusto siyang sabihin sa akin na hindi niya masabi sabi.
"Ok. Pero please anak refrain na from going out. Wala ako kasama dito sa bahay lalo na wala naman ang ate mo."
I felt guilty. Alam kong ako nalang ang dinedependehan ng nanay ko. Pero ayaw kong magmukmok dito sa bahay. It just makes the feel more wounded.
"I'll try po mama." I replied
I still respect my mom but I cant help but feel sorry for her. Masyado nyang mahal yata talaga ang papa ko para magpakamartyr.
"O sige anak, kumain ka na sa baba at nakahanda na ang breakfast mo. Aalis muna ako at bibisitahin ko ang ate mo sa Maynila." my mom said, now with a little smile on her face.
"Sige po" I said and I closed my door as she slowly walked away.
I was thinking of my mother when my phone beeped, prompting that there was a viber message.
<-LINGS
Tin
Hey Miks! ano na nangyare sayo?
Kim
Oo nga ling! wala kang bukambibig pauwi kundi King Eagle ah. hahaha
Tin
