Missing pieces

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Corbyn's pov
When she was driving I couldn't help but look at the way she was quietly singing along to whatever song was playing. It was like a movie because I started to think about when we first met. The look on her face when we were standing at the door of jacks and how I thought she was going to break my heart like all pretty girls did but she didn't. I thought about that night she was at my house and for once in my life, I felt normal because I had snick and girl in and I had some alcohol then kissed her. I thought about when she finally told me where she was and the way I felt because she told me first I've never felt like that before it felt like I was in a warm hug her hug as silly as that sounds. She looked at me with that big smile even though at the moment it was decorated with a cut and some scattered bruises
" what "
Her smile didn't fall with the end of the word
" your beautiful and I was just thinking about how lucky I am to have met you and how different my life would be if you never walked into it ... quite literally "
" Corbyn if you never met me you wouldn't know I was missing ... but I'm happy I opened that door at jacks house that day and walked right into your life "
This was the first conversation we've had in a long time where I didn't have as she says ' liquid courage '
" hey I'm sorry for kinda being a drunk this summer "
" I get it you were all going through things and trust me you weren't a drunk you and I both know that ... you just needed some liquid courage sometimes "
She smiled when she said liquid courage
" Why don't you drink "
It ran out of my mouth like a dog when the door is left open a little
" well I've certainly thought about it letting go for a bit forget the world a little but I don't know I guess I think if I did I'd like it too much you know "
" yeah I was the same way then my brother took me to a party and I drank alcohol by accident and I did like how it made me feel and since then well you know "
I could tell by the look she gave me that she didn't care about that she just cared about me and my safety and all that sappy stuff. Then I thought about the other night at Jonah's and what his mom said and it was like I had no filter today because I said
" A have you ever thought about getting help from a psychologist or something to work through your problems "
" look I can tell you're worried and yes I have then I realized other people have bigger problems then I and I'm working on it and I know I can get through this on my own "
She looked at me and said
" I'm fine Corbyn "
And I knew she meant it so I dropped it and started to sing along to the song too.