Missing pieces

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I was in the kitchen and everyone else had gone to bed I got something to eat and went out onto the deck. After a minute someone came out
" hey what are you doing "
I turned and it was Corbyn
" Just thinking "
He walked out and over to the railing where I was
" I just I don't know can I say something and you promise not the thing I'm crazy "
" yeah "
" ok I just can't stop thinking this is all my fault all of it and I don't know what it is and it's so frustrating "
I started to cry a little
" it's like it's right there and I'm just a little too short to get it and I just want it to stop I just want to get the stupid thing ... and I can't help but feel like I messed everything up and I'm weak and I'm useless "
I was looking down and he put his finger under my chin to hurt my head towards him
" listen you didn't do this it was an accident you are the strongest person I know on so many levels and I don't know where I'd be or any of us for that matter "
He slowly moved forward and kissed me softly he pulled away and I said
" I can taste the liquid courage on your lips "
And it was like I got a key.

Corbyn's pov
I couldn't believe she thought those things about her self
" listen you didn't do this it was an accident you are the strongest person I know on so many levels and I don't know where I'd be or any of us for that matter"
I slowly moved towards her and I was happy I had a little to drink to help with my confidence. After I kissed her she said
" I can taste the liquid courage on your lips "
She said it the same way she did the night she stayed at my house and I could tell by the look on her face that she remembered something
" what is it A "
" I-I remember I remember meeting all of you ... you, Jack, Zach, and Daniel I remember all of it till the day that I yelled at your mom "
I picked her up and spun her around when I put her down I said
" that's amazing A "
I could tell she was happy and I knew she hadn't remembered any of the bad things and for once she looked actually happy no pain hidden in her eyes.

As pov
I was in a house I didn't recognize asleep I woke up to the door opening and a guy came in and then suddenly I was holding him and he died and I was screaming his name.
I sprung up screaming
" JACK JACK "
I was breathing heavily and I was covered in sweat shaking
" Hey hey it's ok "
Someone said wrapping their arms around me. I pulled away and turned to see who it was there jack sat his face full of concern I instantly hugged him and started crying again
" Shhh shhh what happened "
" he he came into my r-room and and then he he died "
" who "
" jack "

Jacks pov
When she said that I knew what she was talking about I was just about to ask if she wanted to know what happened then she said it her self
" What happened to him "
" ok from what you told me before your brother jack came into your room the night he took some pills to umm kill himself and Ummm after that you said you went mute "
She pulled away and looked at me for once I was happy I lost the game and had to sleep I'm the living room
" can you umm stay with me "
She said and she sat up some more
" yeah "