When Hate Become Love (TayNew)

Chapter 12

New POV

I went to the computer room to do some assignments after class ..
When I reached there , I saw P'Tay kissing a girl in the room ....
My mind asked me to running away but my legs can't even moved..

I saw him coming out from the room, I want to running from that place But I cannot even move single step ..

My mind can't work properly and I didn't hear completely all the conversation he and his girlfriend said in front of me ,

"Let's go " he takes my hand to go back but I squatting down at that place ..

" P'Tay ! you go first ! " I took all my energy to tell him ..

" I am so sorry to let you see this kind of thing again"

he touched my head...
I can't take this pain anymore...
It's made me hard to breath ..

" P'Tay ! It's pain "

Yes I told him because I cannot take it anymore ! The pain inside is killing me ..
My tears falling down after saying that....

P'Tay sitting beside me and not talking for awhile..
After that he grabbed my hand again ...

" Let's go to clinic Kid ! Where did you pain? Stomach? "

It's my heart P'Tay ! My heart .. It's broken into pieces... But ..
I looked at him without saying anything..

" I don't know what is happening but you would be tired if you cry so hard.Let's go to clinic"

" Let's go back to the apartment " I try to stand up and said ..

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When we reached to our apartment, I grabbed the ladder to go up .. but he took me to sit on his bed ..

" Don't go up ! sleep on my bed a while ! Your face is so pale and I am worry that you will fall down when going up and down .. "

" Sorry for the earlier .. I still feel not ok .. Maybe I just recover from fever .. "

" Hmm I know it ! Don't say sorry ! Just sleep here today ! I will go up "

I don't know how long I fallen asleep but when I wake up the room is completely dark ..
I can feel someone beside me ..

" Awake ? "  P'Tay lying beside me

" Yes P' ! I will go up now . Sorry "

I try to sit up but P'Tay hand push my chest back.

" Just Sleep here ! " 

" But you .. "

" It's ok ! I already have enough sleep ! It's 4am now.Sleep some more " he covered my eyes with his hand ..

This touching and sleeping next to him make me happy but I .. I am scare that all this can make me more and more hurting !!

" P'Tay ! P' Earth said I can moved in anytime"

" Hmm ! But you said Sunday right ? "

" Yes " The room is quite again for a while ...

" Why ? What did I do wrong ? "  he is asking me while ruffled my hair ..

This kind of touch from the straight man like him who wouldn't fall for it ...
This kind of care from the rude man like him
who wouldn't fall for it ..

" No ... I just "  I don't know what to say and how to start ..

" Can you stay ?"

"...."

" I won't bring any girl in and I won't ask you do the cleaning alone on every weekend "

"......"

" Can you stay ? "

I just don't know how to reply him back ..
I can't tell him that I love him ..
The more I stay near him, the more I attached to him ..
The more I convince myself to forget about him, the more I get stuck lingering on the thoughts of him.

The feeling of hell and heaven when I am with him.
Feeling like hell when I saw him with someone else and feeling like heaven when he care me, touch me and smile at me ..

" Why ? " I asked him back .....

He turn his face near me and whispered

" Because I am happy to stay with you "

My heart beat getting louder and louder ...
I guess that's how he always plays with girls' heart ..
I hate myself for loving him with all the broken pieces of my heart...