(TW: mentions of eating disorder and purging)
I felt okay earlier so I had three pieces of chocolate I got as a thank you gift from someone at church. Three pieces of merci chocolate.
Three.
"You don't wanna gain back all that weight you just lost!"
Thanks, Mom.
You weren't even saying it to me, you were saying it to your mom, but you implied it for me, too.
I had to force myself to eat because there's a lot of people here and if I don't eat they'll notice, I had five little smokeys and two pieces of Russell Stover's chocolate and I honestly want to throw it all up.
I've never wanted to purge before and I'm not even at my house.
Wanna text Sarah or Landon but I've bugged them a lot today and Kamden is gone (we were talking and he said ttyl) but I wouldn't tell him about this anyway.
My grandma just asked if I ate something and my cousin just randomly disappeared a while ago.
On a brighter note, I signed a song in ASL today and my favorite/science teacher came to watch.
YOU ARE READING
i'm sick and tracking it here
Non-Fictionuh yeah so I kinda started putting my mental crap in my ace journal so I made a new thing for that. will change cover but it's such a mood so I might not.
