(TW: mention of eating disorders)
My struggle is, I don't know if I'm always full or never full... Like even when I eat as often as I should, it's like eating two bites of pizza would leave me with the same feeling of eating two whole pizzas.
Which that feeling is the same as when I don't eat for two minutes versus twelve hours.
I really just guesstimate on how often I should eat and how much anymore. Makes for some interesting convos with friends. In fact, I had a half day at school yesterday, got off at my friend's stop (idk what her name is in the ace journal but it's the one that lives a block and a half from me, Sarah I think so here is that). About 12:30 she tells me to go upstairs with her and I follow, she opens the fridge and goes, "Let's figure out some lunch."
"I forgot about lunch," I said.
She glared.
I wasn't joking.
I normally don't eat lunch when I'm not at school and even when I do my best friend (Kauffman for those ace journal readers, for here it's Kamden) will occasionally yell at me because I "don't eat sh**."
On a more positive note I had three meals today but breakfast was just chocolate.
YOU ARE READING
i'm sick and tracking it here
Non-Fictionuh yeah so I kinda started putting my mental crap in my ace journal so I made a new thing for that. will change cover but it's such a mood so I might not.
