There are many kinds of birds that could take flight with just a flap of the wings. A beat and a jump later, they would soar through the air and leave everything behind.
I wished I could be like one of them.
With a folded letter in my hand, I made my way up to the owlery for the first time in my life, footsteps echoing as I mounted the stone steps. A foul stench of owl droppings made its way to my nose, thankfully made dull by the cold breezes wafting through the open windows. As I approached the long line of owls dozing off in the spacious chamber, my eyes eventually landed on a handsome brown owl, ruffling its feathers and blinking its large black eyes when it noticed me.
This was probably the first time I wrote to my parents. It only just occurred to me how much I miss them while I was on my constant search for the Cursed Vaults.
"Safe flight, then," I murmured to the owl the moment I tied my note onto its leg. With a little hoot, the owl soared off, and as I watched it flap its wings I wished that I could be free from this kind of life like this bird could be. I wished I was just a normal student like everyone else without the story of the infamous brother looming over my head. Somehow, I felt my initial anger at Rowan dissipate just a little as my gaze lingered on the owl disappearing from view, but it soon returned when I remembered why I wrote to my family in the first place.
During the summer, my parents brought me to a doctor because they thought I was going mad. They sent me to a nearby clinic to check on my mental state, because for a moment they thought that my battle with You-Know-Who was just a nightmare. Just like my brother, they worried that I would soon go insane and disappear on them too. I understood that they wanted me to become more sane and follow the rules for once, but I've already broken so many to back down now. I didn't want to be a rebel, but when things were happening to others, for some reason I felt like I had to take some responsibility. I had to break the rules to save the school, despite the professors saying not to do anything out of line.
Why did I have this kind of curse in the first place? My entire time at Hogwarts seemed cursed, and made more so with the kinds of dangers I put my friends in. As much as I wanted things to be normal, it just isn't possible.
Maybe it's just best if I leave my friends. Maybe it's best if I became my own mentor. It's better than to put anyone I loved in further trouble.
The slam of the door suddenly startled me from my reverie, and I turned around to see a girl I've never met before stare at me with wide eyes.
"I'm so sorry," she said, shaking her head. "I didn't know anyone else was up here."
I would have typically left her alone right then and there if she just wanted solitude, but that would seem pretty rude. Instead, I just shrugged. "It's fine. You can stay up here. I just sent a letter to my parents."
"You write to them often?" the girl asked, sitting down on the stone floor and letting out an exasperated sigh.
"Not really. This is the first," I admitted. "It's just...things have been tough lately, so I thought I'd talk with them. Well, send them a letter, really."
"I've had a lot of trouble fitting in since I got here," the girl eventually said after a moment of silence. "It's been hard since everyone has trouble seeing you as a monster."
"You don't seem like a monster, though." The words were out of my mouth before I could stop them, and I frowned at the girl, sitting beside her. "I mean, you're nice..."
"That's what everyone says, until they know of my secret." The girl ran a hand through her pale blonde hair and sighed again, her eyes fixated on the central point of the turret. "It's not like I asked that werewolf to change my life forever."
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Rainbows (A Hogwarts Mystery Story)
FanfictionIt wasn't easy being Jacob's little sibling. Many people knew him as a mad kid, obsessed with locating the secret to the rumoured Cursed Vaults in his time at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry. He was expelled due to his involvement, and ru...