Everlasting love (nemi)

I hate being me

"Demi's pov"

It was lunch time by now I entered the room with nick we took our food and went to sit at our table I was eating ok until I heard her laugh the laugh I have thought I got away with I thought I left her back home I searched the whole room with my eyes until I finally saw here it was Jessica my bully what the hell is she doing here did she self harm no she used to drink all the time maybe she is here because of addiction or something she saw me seeing her and she smiled I smiled back at her only because I was scared of her doing something to me I looked back at my food and started eating slowly she came to our table

"Hi guys can I join u "she asked

"Sure is it ok with u demz"nick asked

I just nodded not bothering to make any eye contact at all

I can fell her watching me while I eat I felt uncomfortable

"Are u okay Demi"she asked

"Why do u care"I asked

"Demi I know that u still remember me "she said

"Ok what's going on"nick asked

"Nick meet Jessica ... Jessica this is nick so u know she is the girl that bullied me she made me start self harming and all the shit"I said

"Demi I am so sorry I didn't realize that I was sick myself I had a bipolar disorder too my mood swing from time to time I thought that by taking my anger on u I would be okay I .... U don't know how many times I hate myself from the time I saw that u had problems I hated myself so much for hurting u Demi .... I woke up every morning the first thing I see is u the first thing is remember is u being kicked ruthlessly by me I hate it so much Demi I am so sorry that I did that to u"she said

I was crying by now

"Please don't cry I am not worth ur tears " she said

"I believe in second chances and I am giving u one just dont screw it and dont say that everybody is worth someone to cry for"I said

"Can I hug u "she asked

"U don't have to ask u r my friend now"I replied

I reached out and hugged her for good 5minutes till she pulled back I saw that she was crying I wiped away her tears

"Don't cry Jess"I said

"No Demi please let me cry u don't know how much I hated myself from the moment u went into rehab I was hating myself cause it was all my fault I was the one who bullied u ... U r so kind Demi nothing in the world can make me express how sorry I am"she said

"Jess I forgive u now "I said

"thank u Demi"she said

I turned back and sat on my seat nick took my hand and kissed it I smiled at him...... now I had to eat I ate a few bites until I was uncomfortably full I kept remembering maddie in my head I managed to finish my plate and then went into my room with nick now I had therapy i cant tell anybody about nick i will open up about my eating disorder but not about my depression

i entered the therapy room a  started talking after uncomfortable staring at the wall

AN-I KNOW I KNOW. ITS. SHORT BUT I.HAD TO UPDATE I WAS A BIT BUSY TODAY DEALING WITH ALL SHIT