Everlasting love (nemi)

what did i do to ur heart

"nicks pov"

i can't believe that i did that to demi .... she really did trust me and she loved .. i loved her back the thing that demi didnt know is that i got back with miley before we got togther when i called our relationship off she told me everything was fine and then i went to demi the day before demi caught me and miley i was at joes party i got drunk as usual miley was drunk too i wonder how did we manage to get to my house but i did cheat on demi that was the last thing she needed i didnt want her to compare me to wilmer or joe as they both cheated on her but she did i cant help myself i just lost my soulmate and my bestfriend but most of all my girlfriend the girl i always had a crush on ... i went to the wine house and brought me some wine and some cigars i smoke them them a drank 1 full wine bottle ... that is what i do when i am sad or lonley ... and when she told me her demons came bac because of me i couldnt help but cry i managed to reach to my bead and sleep i woke up the next morning with a terrible headache ... i took out my phone to see demis tweet ... i dont think i should break her more than i already did ITS ALL MY FUCKIN FAULT

"demis pov"

i woke up the next morning to take a bath i was going to relax i was searching for my shampoo in the cabinet but instead i hitted a sharp surface i took it out to see my old blade i rushed to the toilet to flush it but i couldnt

"u know u need to do this demi"the voice said

"no i dont i am strong"i said back to him mentally

"oh come on u know thats the only way and no one will notice if u cutted in ur thighs "

i took the razor and stared it at I was in deep thought

"why am i a worhtless peice of shit ?why cant i live a normal life?why cant i be beautiful?why can i love my body ?why cant i just die?"i screamed out loud enough

... i was taken out of my thought by the sound of crying ... i forgot to lock the door... i looked up to see my mom crying at the door behind her was dallas

"why did u do it demi?my mom asked while crying

"mom i didn't do anything .i-I I almost did it but I couldn't I can't stop them mom "i said while crying as well

"demi , u know i can help it to see my sister in this condition i am going to help u but if it gets out of control u r going back to rehab"dallas said while hugging me

"i .... i ... i will try to become better .. mom i need u to promise me that if my condition gets worse u will send me to treatment right away"i said while looking at my mom

"i promise u demi"mom said

"and dallas i need u to stay here with me in my room until i get better i need someone to look after me "i said while pointing to dallas

"i will do it i will even let maddie come here we three will go through this together "dallas said

i nodded to give her my approval

i took out my phone after getting dressed and saw that some of my lovatics were scared for me i tweeted them saying

ddlovato-yes nemi is over but dont worry lovelies i still have u all #stayingstrongformylovatics

i opened the tv to see entertainment tonight

nick and i breaking up was the top new and also there was news saying that Nick was found drunk in his house by his brother joe they say that he went to sleep after recording a voicemail to his ex demi and the unroken demi lovato sounds broken now after her tweets and it in addition to that i think that miley had a reason for their breakup

with that i closed the tv and went to help dallas to bring her bed to my room i know my room is freakishly big now we had two queen-sized bed in my room i had a dallas and a maddie with me i think i can get through this i hope