Happy As Can Be.

Chapter 23: Beaten In Lips

As if life isn't hard already

Added to the list of things to forget

With one shot to define ourselves

Were gonna keep on living!

Keep on living!

This is for the kids with the beaten in lips

Whose parents try to shut them up using their fists!

Keep living loud and proud!!!

They never can hold you down!

This is for the kids with the soul like mine

Who people tell them living is a waste of your time

Keep living loud and proud!

They never can hold you down.

-Beartooth

Heyo!

So I think there's gonna be like 3 more chapters until I'm gonna do the sequel!

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I love you all so much it hurts!!!

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"Hero, can you stop nagging me for five fucking minutes?!" Pete asks in frustration.

I sigh and look at my hands in my lap feeling like crying.

It's like he didn't love me.

He hasn't said he has in like 9 months and we've been back together for like a year.

I seriously felt like the only thing he wanted me for was sex.

"Pete you're gonna wake Lana please be quiet" I say softly looking up at him my brown eyes connecting with his nearly black ones.

I take in a deep breath and quickly look away.

He sighs and rubs his hands over his face.

This can't be healthy.

To be fucking scared of your boyfriend.

To think that tomorrow you're gonna walk out with bruises and broken teeth.

To feel as if he would hurt his own daughter.

He scares me.

"Hero, look at me baby" he says softly.

I wipe a tear and look at him slowly.

His facial expression was softer and he was kneeled down in front of me.

This is not the man I knew.

Know.

Nor love.

He scares me more than anyone.

I start shaking and crying.

"Baby. Hey what's wrong?" He asks kissing my hands.

I really dont want to hate him, because when acts like this I wanna kiss him and love him and hold him.

But he's changed.

After he had cheated on me with Meagan I just gave up and knew he'd changed.

I wanted to pack my shit up and walk out the door.

But he wouldn't let me go anywhere with 'his baby'.

It is his baby but I mean he hasn't held her since she turned 1.

He doesn't look at her or anything.

But she's so beautiful.

She's got gorgeous bright blue eyes that she got from her grandma.

She had Pete's tan skin.

And his jet black hair.

She's gorgeous.

"You scare me so much" I cry and don't look at him.

He tenses and I pull my hands away cowering into the couch block my face crying more.

"I'm not gonna hit you" he spits standing up.

I'm still shaking.

"Stop crying" he says.

I can't it's uncontrollable.

He grabs me and pulls me up grabbing my wrists.

"Stop!!!" He screams in a booming voice.

I hear the baby start crying and I pull away running upstairs and slamming her door and locking it.

"Hero open the goddamn door!!!!"

(But Brendon told me to keep it closed.....)

I put my hand over my mouth and keep crying.

I go over to Lana's bed and pick her up and rocking her causing her to stop crying.

He keeps pounding on the door trying to get in.

What's changed him?

I miss Pete I miss him so much.

I want him back so fucking bad.

But he's so awful now.

What did I do?!

I sniffle and look at Lana who's on my hip he legs around my torso and she's resting her head on my shoulder sucking her thumb and watching the door.

I smile softly and stroke her hair and kiss her forehead.

"HERO!!!!!!!!!" He screams and pounds harder.

I shake my head and back into the corner holding Lana and sitting down crying and closing. My eyes trying to drown it out.

Pete, I love you and miss you.

Please come back.

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Awe sad day!