Our Diary ( Ambrolleign )

Dec 31, 2032

Seth Write

Yea Papa right, looks Deany shame on you! Now I can say it 'I told you right' Papa will never lying to us. Papa rights we are treated like a king in SMAC. That is because we are kids and our Papa is a captain here. No one is brave enough to cross our path, not to mention they don't even have a ball to touch us. I like it so much, no I actually love it. Note to myself: don't judge a camp by its name. Everyone here have to wake up at 6:30 am while we? We can wake up anytime we want 10:00 am? 11:00 am? Who care? No one will dare to be mad at us, But Rome and me is a morning person so we still gonna wake up early in the morning no matter what, not like Dean such a lazy person. Sometimes he wake on a lunch time. Plus we can eat whatever we want and as much as we want. We can play the whole day until night or until we are completely exhausted. We don't have to do a workout like other army. For Example they need to run 10 times around the fields and carry a cinder blocks on their back every morning. They call it morning routine or something I actually don't care because I don't need to do it anyway. Auch looks like it is so hard to be an army ha? I think livings in army camp is way better then living as a students in a boring high school. Anyway the water is president cool because they don't have a water heater but its okay I got used to it real quick. Oh let me mention how we can wonder everywhere around this place and still people can't say anything about us because what? Our papa is a captain haha! I think my heart is starting to love this place. Every corner of this place its like a new adventure to me, But like people said every beautiful rainbow come with its own cloudy skies. What I mean by that it is their army they are...... how can I say without sounding rude ha? maybe. Not all of them but some of them. Almost 70% of them I don't know why but they always disturb and annoyed us mostly Deany. Mostly this guy, I think he is a leader of a made up club of a CZW some stupid shit club Dean says. That guy likes Dean, I mean by liking Dean is he is actually crazy for him. Always 24/7 following Dean when he is not on duty. Always staring at Dean and licking his lips. I'm pretty sure he is catching a feeling for Dean but he can't tell Deany he loves him because it is wrong in a SMAC law. We are not allowed to loves the same genders of us, much less to actually married them. (What a stupid idiot rules Deany said). I love Deany too and it makes me jealous when I found out about this guy. Mostly when that guy flirting with Deany. In what I see its looks like they try to take advantage from Deany kindness. I said 'they' because they are many not just that one guy. Once I see that guy and his gang try to rapped (maybe?) Deany in a toilet, but luckily Rome was there. Thank god you're my Savior Rome.

Dean Write

Idiot small Sethie they don't rape me we just erghhh playing some games! You better shut your lil mouth or else. Seriously other time please shut your little hell mouth. I will never like this place it is like a pre hell before I go to the real one. Purgatory what I would name it. Their food never good. Their water is too cold. Their army are too ugly. This place stinks. I have to share my big bed with my 2 brothers and it is so annoying. I hate everything about this place. Rather die then beings in this places. Like seriously when I sleep why you always staring at me, Rollins? Do you think that I don't know you actually fucking hugs me when I'm sleep? And WTH Rome? Did you really have to kiss my forehead before I go to sleep? We're not kids anymore you don't have to do that I am a grown up man right now. Why everyone in this world like to touch me? Especially my body! Always want to hurt me and always don't care about me! It's not fair! You guys the one who called my psycho and that is why I always hurt my own-self, cause I don't care about me either. I think in the way of hurting myself will changes everything in my mind and the voice will stop shouting at me. I just want an attention and get this voice out of my head. I never had a friend in my lives the only friend I got is my demons inside me. If I get rid of it then I will lose my one and only friend. I don't know what to do now. I'm so confused. I wanted to cry but crying will never change anything. Its not like it can fix my damn problem, plus the voice will start mocking me if I cry. Big boy don't cry. That is what I always say to myself no matter how much you cry your pain will never gone, be brave and accept the pain like you supposed to do. Rome says it is okey to cry sometimes but to me it just show that I was weak and afraid. And I'm not weak. Not in a million years!

Rome Write

Uhhhhh about this place! Damn I love this place real bad I will never leave it for god sake. This place is pretty cool and awesome. I don't know why Deany doesn't like this place but I rate it as a 5 stars luxury hotel. Did Deany have a problem here? Why he doesn't want to tell me anything? Nowadays he doesn't want to share with me anything anymore like we used to do when we are kid. Did he scare or what? Someone is bullying him again? Did Deany sick? Love someone? Hate someone? Did you just get jackoff by anyone? Come on Deany tell me I'm not a magician or mind reader. I will never know if you don't say it to me. Huh dude I don't know what is going on with my little one here. I can't even guess what it is. Normally I can at least read his facial expressions and guess what his problem by that but Deany change man like a lot. My head are just too full with Deany problems. Now he is an outcast. He is so shy with everyone and don't even want to talk at all he is too quiet for a normal kids his age. He don't want to eat, play, sleep or even talk! Please my lovely Deany what is wrong with you dear?  Come on my little lunatic fringe tell me dude what's wrong with you? You use to be a mouthful boy always have something to says, something to joke about or just singing out of blue. Be the old you again man, don't scare me like this. Sethie want to tell me something but Its seems like something stop him from doing that. Everytime he want to do that he will freak out before he can even talk. I think he is too afraid to told me what is going on. Hey cuttie Sethie did Deany will yell to you or he will kick your ass if you tell me? Just tell me tho don't worry about things after that I promise you Sethie I will protect you no matter what. Even though things seems different now at least I am happy staying here. I have my family and I can spend more time with my dad. What makes me more happy is that I finally can sleep with Deany. Its hard to sleep with him he will rather wake at night and instead of pushing you from his bed, he will just go to sleep in a toilet. Damn he such an outcast. But it still the best time in my life, he is so cute when he is sleeping like Sethie said "I can literally see every beautiful thing in this world just by seeing Deany sleeping" man Sethie always right. My heart is flatter. Seeing you sleep is like a one of a wonderful thing science can't explain.