Vincenzo

2 years later (author's story)

Hello everyone! Long time no see (;

I have recently gone through every single comment on the last chapter of the book. I don't think some people think of me as an actual person with an actual person life--which kinda sucks-- but oh well. I am posting this just so anyone who has read my book or is reading it can understand why I decided to stop writing but still keep my work up for people to read and why I portrayed my characters a certain way.

First I'd like the introduce myself, my name is Emily. I am now 16 years old! Little old South Dakota is still my home sweet home (:

I think the main reason I stopped writing was just based on the fact that I had a lot going on in my life and to spend the hours it took to produce one good chapter wasn't realistic at that point in time.

To the people who said "you wasted my time": I didn't do it to waste anyone's time. I'm sorry if that's who you feel but that was never my intention. I enjoyed writing very very much.

To the people who said "why even start writing if you weren't going to finish it?": I think all I can say to you is that your question is very ignorant and inconsiderate. When I started Vincenzo, I had every intention of finishing it. I was so excited to keep going with it! However, life does not stop for anything. Depression hit me full force in April of 2015. I was seeking help from many people. It was a long and very tough road back to being stable. I don't like going into detail about what I was like during this time because it's a little too personal and brings back memories I'd like to forget.

To the people who called me a misogynist because of the way I portrayed Claire, please listen to my story; That following summer I met a boy who made me forget about my sadness. I don't like saying names so we'll call him F. F became my entire world. We did everything together. But, F was not nice to me sometimes. He did and said very degrading things. I would try to tell people about what was going on but they would say to me "Oh F is such a nice boy, there's no way he's do that! Why are you lying?" Or "With how you're dressed it's no wonder he wants to do those things to you" I got called horrible things for 6 months with no support from anyone. I have been a personal victim of "slut shaming" So never try to tell me I'm a misogynist for it. I put that in the plot of my book because it's real. It's so real it would be selfish to leave it out. Reading those sections about Claire and being able to understand that those thoughts are wrong is amazing. Because often times people think that's okay to do to women and it's not. Anyways, after 6 months I finally built up the strength and courage to leave F. I've found a new boy who makes me feel so special, we'll call him H.

To H: I love you --if you would like to see pics of me and him message me for my insta :))))

To the people who said "why don't you just take down the book, you're being selfish": I choose to keep my book up because I'm proud of it. I am so proud of how far I got with it. I do not think that I'm being selfish in any way. I wrote that book for myself to enjoy, not for anyone else. I won't take it down because if I took it down then it'd be as if I'd never even written it, and I don't want it to be that way.

To the people who said "You can't just____" This is my book, and I do get to decide what to do with it. So I can, and I will, do anything I want.

I hope that this explains some of my thought process about discontinuing my book. Thank you to anyone who reads this.

Please feel free to message me if there is anything you would like to say. I'm always here to listen and try to help!