shades of blue

celeste blue;

Some days, I feel everything, crashing
down on me as if I'm an abandoned ship
in a ocean of sins.

Some days, I feel nothing: a touch of
numbness as a cloak of emptiness
wraps around my body. But then
I'd shake off the cloak and disappear
into a world where feet shuffle
and taxi cars blur past you like
a star caught in the web of burning
lies and fire.

But I don't know what is worse,
Azura, drowning in an ocean,
or swimming to nowhere.