Anticipating Forever / Forbidden

Vickie and Robert (9)

Vickie and Robert (9)

I couldn't apologize enough.

I tried to explain why I was feeling the way I was.

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I knew what Robert was saying. I knew what his fears were and I tried to make him understand that I did not care. I just wanted to see my man and see if what I felt was real.

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I Skyped her. She accepted immediately, but did not turn on her video.

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He looked like shit. I knew he was hung over and he was unshaven...

but he was still the sexiest man I had ever seen.

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She turned on her video.

She was sitting up in bed, her nightshirt hanging down over one shoulder.

She was so sexy.

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He was staring.

I smiled at him.

"Well what do you think, old man?"

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"You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen."

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I smiled at him and let my strap fall down lower, partially exposing one breast.

I thought he was going to have a heart attack.

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She was so sexy..

I could only stare and sigh.

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"I love you", I told him as I pulled the strap back up.

I remember telling him that I did not care about his age or the fact that he was not shaven or any of that shit.

I loved him and now seeing him in front of me, I was more in love with him than I had ever been.

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We talked for hours, sharing coffee and talking about everything.

But I had to work in the afternoon.

We had a job that had to be finished.

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I got very serious with Robert.

I told him that I loved him very much but no more bullshit.

He had to accept me and accept us, or I was leaving Wattpad for good and he would never see me gain.

No more crap. We were either in this together or we were ending it...

Right Now.

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I couldn't lose Vickie.

We decided right then that we would continue forward.

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I told him I would wait until he got all his shit straightened out, as long as from here on in he was completely honest with me.

He agreed.

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I just wanted Vickie. I still didn't understand what she saw in me, but I didn't care. Seeing her face, I knew she was being honest with me.

I felt like a teenager.

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The next month was magic.

Without going into details, we got to know each other on an intimate level.

And it was magic.

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Every touch, every kiss...

every emotion was real.

I could feel her lips, her hand in mine. I could smell her hair, feel her breath on my neck.

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No man had ever sent sensations through me like Robert could.

He was the love of my life.

Then one night he shocked me.

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I was terrified to ask her, but I thought what the heck.

I asked her that when this was all settled and if we were together, would she consider marrying me.

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I said yes...

Immediately.

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I was shocked and happy and afraid.

I remember asking her if she was sure.

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I just told him again...

"yes"

I told Robert that if he came to me, I would marry him.

Once again I could not believe the words coming from my mouth.

We said goodnight, both of us happier than we had ever imagined we could be.

But as soon as I signed out of Skype, I started crying like a baby.

Robert knew everything about me, except for one thing.

And that one thing could tear us apart forever.