Your POV
I slid down the wall o the living room! The wall Niall had pushed me up against and kisses me till we couldn't breath only about a billion times! I sat there and held my knees to my body resting my grad against it! My tears falling into a pool on my leggings! I had the knife in my hands all I had to do was the joiner of Chopin up my wrists for the second time today! My hands shook, I started to breath heavily,I couldn't control myself I started to slice at my wrists lines of blood forcing themselves up to the surface of my skin! The knife left a trail of heat each time I cut and before long I had, had enough and ended up just crying! I started shaking fiercely my breath hitching and becoming jagged. I heard the door nob twist but my brain wouldn't let me think of anything else but being sad. I dropped the knife and started to rock slightly as Niall walked in.
"EMILY..." He shouted and dropped everything he was holding rushing to my side! "Oh Emily you haven't have you?" He said picking up the large butchers knife I has used, blood was washed over on the blade and a small pool was on the floor from my wrist.
"I'm depressed..." I said letting it sink in "I'm fucking depressed Niall, I don't wanna live any more, I can't cope!" I said and Niall just pulled me into his lap taking his shirt off and wrapping it around my wrists, he rested his chin on top of my head and stroked my hair as I cried icy tears into his bare chest. The smell of his cologne and shower gel filled my nose as I breathed heavily in and out.
"Shhhh princess you need to live, you have me, I'm your coping mechanism" Niall whispered into my ear as my fist clenched tight to his arms! My tears glistening on Niall's muscular Abb's
"Come on sweetie come up stairs with melted clean you up!" Niall whispered and I sat up staring into a blank trance looking at the wall but not thinking about anything! Niall scooped me up and carried me with him to the bathroom! He put the plug in and ran some hot water! Only a small amount so I could sit in it. he grabbed the shower head left it running in the bath as e took away his t-shirt and sighed closing his eyes for a few seconds before pulling himself together and starting to peel my t-shirt off and he pulled my leggings off so I could hop in the bath! I pulled my panties and bra off and hopped him hiding my thighs from Niall, I had butchered up my thighs as well, I didn't want him to see it. I tucked my knees up and hugged them as I let Niall wash my hair. "there's no need for you to cover yourself, your beautiful Emily" niall said and I frowned
"No I'm just cold!" I said and Niall half smiled as he continues to wash my hair! He stopped the shower and grabbed a flannel. "hand me your wrists" he said delicately and he wipes them carefully as I grit my teeth looking down at my thighs. Please don't notice was all I could think. He had bandaged up my wrists now! "There you go sweetheart!" He said and kissed my forehead. "Emily what's that!" He said and pushed my legs down! "Oh Emily your really broke!" He said and wiped up my legs as I cried into my hands! I thought I was all outta tears but it seemed I wasn't! "Why have you don't this?" Niall shouted and I edged backwards
"Answer me!" he shouted louder and I just covered my ears crying more!
"W-why are you angry with me?" I stuttered and he frowned
"I'm sorry Emily, I really am please don't cry, I'm not angry it just hurts me so much to see you in this state!" He whispered and patched up my legs before drying me and putting on a pair of my leggings and his baggy t-shirt I loved so much, he went and got a clean shirt and came back for me moments later! He carried me to the bed an lay me under the covers, he lay next to me and hugged me close!
"Promise me you will never do that ever again!" Niall said and I just sighed
"I'm depressed...." was all I said and he sighed stroking my hair and kissing my lips and forehead multiple times!
"I love you princess" he said and I half smiled for the first time today
"I love you too!" I whispered just wanting to fall asleep and forget the world
Sorry it's really sad! I cried written it! Omg any way I wrote it for my friend Emily and I hope she likes it! Xxx
