My brothers best friend is my mate!

Pack business

Hi! I just feel like I should give a tiny message for you guys.

I was laying in bed reading a fanfic about self harm and I was thinking there are many people who hurt themselves. I'm friends with 2 people who cut themselves. I, by no means, will lecture you about how wrong it is (in my opinion at least) because you have your own reasons but I feel that you should know something. Every single one of you are a huge inspiration to me. I don't care who you are. If you cut yourself or if your gay or even if you choose to not be identified as girl or a boy you are my reader and you mean the world to me. You're not just some number on a book. You're my strength. You are what keeps me writing. This may sound extremely selfish of me but it's true. You are all special. I want to thank each and everyone of you. It's because of you that I continue to write. When I see, or rather when I read, that people like my book I get overwhelmed with a sense of happiness. I created a piece of work that brought so many people together. Now that may be beside the point here but what I'm getting at is that you all matter. Each and every life matters. And I think that if you have such scars from cutting yourself too deep or even scratching yourself a bit makes you the strongest person in the world. You went through all that pain just to live one more day and if you live one more day that one more day could be the best thing you ever did. That one more day could bring you a life time full of happiness. Even if it is a small happiness it is still there. You've touched my heart and those around you so don't take your life by self harm. Don't take your life ever! Because your life matters and if you don't think it does then your plain stupid. Because if you feel all alone and unloved then know this. Your not alone and not unloved. Because I'm here and I love you! You have friends and a life and that means something. Don't give it away. Show the world just how strong you are! Rise up and beat this cruel world! We all have a light inside us and sometimes we have have to let it shine. :) I love you all!

I hope you enjoy this chapter! Sorry for such a long authors note but I felt that if I could help anyone I'd like to try my best. :) enjoy my lovelies!

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Waking up was difficult. The sunlight beamed down on my face and my eyes grew irritated from it. Groaning I rolled over and was instantly greeted by a growing warmth. Smiling I cuddled up next to the warmth. Soon enough I heard breathing and the breath began to tickle my face. Scrunching up my face I opened my eyes to find Kyle laying next to me. His body was slightly curled up and his hands laid out in front of him, reaching out to me. He looked fragile and delicate sleeping like that, making my love for him grow even more. So he was the amazing warmth I felt? Of course he was... I smiled bigger and went to close my eyes again however my action was interrupted by a groan. Freezing I looked up to see Kyle was waking up. As his eyes fluttered open I was awed by the beautiful shade they turned. Smiling happily I greeted him. "Good morning!" I said, happy to have him in front of me. I truly love Kyle. Though he may not seem it he is a wonderful mate. It was the little things really. Like how he didn't dare treat me like everyone else did. He treated me like a regular wolf who he was mates to and I honestly couldn't be happier to have such a mate. I was fortunate. Kyle is the only good thing in my life. My family was different. Sure I was annoyed with them most of the time but deep down I feel like they care. My brother is there for me when I least expect it and my mother provides for me. Whether they have their special reason why they do what they do is none of my business I'm just happy to have a family. Kyle smirked, rubbing his eyes. "Your very excited this morning." He noted, his hands snaking around my hips and suddenly I was pulled on top of him, straddling his hips. I giggled as I looked down at him. "And someone's a little concupiscent this morning." I teased. "I'm not. Although this position is very sexy." He smirked. I laughed. He was just putting me on top of him- which made me feel amazing! I was on top of the alpha! How many people can say that?! Kyle looked up at me, reaching his hand up and finding a strand of my hair. "What are you thinking about?" He asked, noticing my focused look. I smiled. "Just how lucky I am. How many people get to say they've been on top of the alpha?" I muse. He smirks. "You'd be surprised." He glinted. This had me seething with pure rage and I glared at him before leaning down on him. "Are you kidding me?! Kyle your a pervert I can't believe you'd ruin my moment with that!" I shout at him. He chuckles and grabs my hands. "Relax, I was only joking. But I'm glad to see you'd get angry about that." He smiled and I huffed. Just teasing huh? We'll see about that! Idiot... Suddenly a knock sounded at the door, drawing both of our attentions. I slid off Kyle and walked to the door, fixing my clothes as I did so. When I opened the door I was confused. There was two girls standing there with a big cart of food. They smiled and one of them spoke. "We've brought breakfast to the guest Alpha and Luna." She stated. My mouth dropped open. It's a freaking buffet!! Swinging the door open I continued to gawk as they strolled in to the room. Kyle was standing up now and was watching the girls sharply. I walked over and stood beside him. I can't believe this! It's amazing! I never would of guessed that a pack house could be this awesome! I mean the gold, the chandeliers, and the room service! It's all a total bomb ass pack! "Thank you girls." Kyle gave a curt smile and they bowed before leaving. I huffed. Does he have to be so kind? Turning my eyes back to the food I smiled. "I'm starving!" I went to reach for the food when Kyle stopped me. "Hey!" I looked back at him with a scowl. He gave me a scowl of his own making me get confused. What's he doing? "Don't eat the food. I don't trust this pack- not even the alpha. Let's eat when we get back to our own pack. Understand?" His voice was deep, rough, and really harsh. It wasn't the alpha tone but it was damn near it. Sighing I relented. "You better get us home fast because I'm absolutely starving!" I muttered angrily before walking away to find the bathroom. The bathroom was in the room with us so I don't have to travel far. Closing the door I sighed and walked to the mirror. Yesterday's talk with Adam came reeling back and gave me goosebumps. Kyle told me to forget about it all but how can I? It had such an impact. What if I really can't mate with Kyle? I had planned on a happy future for us but what if there's no future at all? Adam did say if I found my wolf that I'd be 'saved' but is he telling me the truth or giving me false hope? Kyle doesn't seem to trust this pack or Adam at all so maybe I shouldn't trust them either. "Spenc?" Kyle called out. I must be taking too long! "Yeah?" I replied. "You alright? You're taking a while in there." I blushed. "Sorry!" I went to the bathroom and then opened the door. "I was just thinking." I admitted. He gave me a look and I knew he knew what I was thinking about. "I told you to just forget it. It probably wasn't true at all. He's just trying to get into our minds and scare us so we become weak and he can strike." Kyle stated, his eyes almost going black with rage. I sighed and hugged him, resting my head on his broad chest. I dot know why he is getting so angry about it but I'll comfort him. Kyle is my anchor in this world. He's my love of my life. "Alright let's get a move on already!" I said, pulling away to smile at him. He gave me one last look before walking to the door and opening it up. We exited the house and met up with our guards. Saying our goodbyes to the pack we were on our way back home. Time seemed to slow down on the way back. No matter how much I wished to be back in my own bed and in my familiar house the time just wouldn't go faster. Sighing as we made camp I sat beside the fire and looked up at the stars. What will it be like when I go home? Will things have changed? Will things go back to normal? And by normal I mean the mean and harsh looks, the demeaning words and stares that I seem to always get. I look over at Kyle who was whispering something to the guard wolves. Who knows what the future will bring but as long as I have Kyle in my arms then I will face it, I will embrace it, and I will live with it. Sighing once more I closed my eyes and rested my head on my knees, letting my body soak up the heat from the fire. Ahh... I can't wait to get home and let things settle down. I wonder how that boy is doing. His parents are gone and all he has left is his aunt. That must be pretty hard to adjust to. Sleep over took me but not for long. I woke to the sound of barking and yelps of pain. Shooting up I looked around, taking a defensive stance. What's going on?! All around me was a fight. The fire from last night had died down but the coals still burned slightly. I looked more closely and saw that Kyle was fighting with some other wolf. Everyone was fighting with another wolf. Everyone except me... Wouldn't they attack me? The defenseless idiot? The half breed who's looked down upon? Somethings not right here... Suddenly, as if on cue, I was picked up and thrown over someone's shoulder. I let my scream rip from my throat. "Let go! Let go you bastard!" I kicked my legs and swing my fists furiously but it didn't seem to work. Lila please! Now would be a great time to come out!!! I pleaded. I can't I'm sorry but I'm just too weak... Our fight with that other wolf has left me wounded... She faintly whispered. I sighed. Poor Lila. She's really hurt and weak... The thought of losing my wolf brought on a whole new rage. I snarled and grabbed the mans hair roughly, pulling it to the point it was ripping out. He screamed and dropped me. Landing with a thud I groaned in pain but got up and looked around. Everyone had stopped fighting now. The man stood up and glared at me. "So you do have some strength in you." He commented. I glared back at him. "I'm not one to be fondled with!" I spat back. He chuckled and snapped his fingers. Suddenly Kyle was brought out, ropes tied around his hand and he was brought to his knees, a knife trained on his chest- his heart. My eyes widened and I gasped. "Let him go!" I shouted. The man smirked. "Not so fast. All I want is you and then I'll let your pathetic, weak, alpha go. Understand?" Rage boiled up inside of me as he bad mouthed my mate and alpha. I won't stand for it. I clenched my fist and swing at the man, hitting him square in the face. This rage and power wasn't Lila, it was my own strength. "Take it back!" I screamed as I threw another punch at his face. He cried out, blood dripping from his lips and nose. "Woah stop it!" Soon I was captured by the mans comrades. I pushed them away and they cowered. I sneered at them. "Let him go!" I growled. Noticing how our guard wolves were starting to formate I locked eyes with one of them and he nodded. He was ready to attack so me and Kyle could make our get away. I gave a small nod back and all hell broke loose. Our guard wolves attacked the others and I made a dash for Kyle. Quickly untying the rope I hugged him. "Let's go. They want us to leave so they can fight them off with out worry." I whispered. Kyle understood and grabbed my arm before pulling me along and pushing our way out. We ran and ran and ran for what seemed like hours. My wolf stamina wasn't keeping up with Kyle's and I was panting hard. My lungs burned and ached. I tugged on Kyle's hand, slowing him down until we stopped. I leaned over, gasping for air.  "I... I can't do it.... I'm running out... Of... Stamina..." I rasped out. Not long afterwords was I picked up by Kyle, his eyes were black so I knew he was still full of wolf power. He must be planning on carrying me the rest of the way. As if answering my thoughts he took off running and in an hour or so we were back in the pack area. Our home. He didn't stop there he ran me all the way to his office at the pack house. He set me down, slamming the door and locking it as he did so. "Kyle-?" I was cut off with his lips pressed to mine in an extremely harsh kiss. I moaned but pulled way, staring at him confused like. What is he doing? Shouldn't he be worried about the pack? Not another thought was made as he kissed me again, this time much more passionately. His tongue entered my mouth and played with mine. His hands roamed my body, squeezing my thighs and butt. I moaned out in pleasure. It feels so good to be touched by him. His hungry lips and needy hands set my body on fire with want. He pushed me backwards until I was pressed up against the desk, there he picked me up and set me down on it. Opening my mouth wider I tipped my head back, trying to get more out of the kiss. Kyle's such an amazing kisser and I'm getting so turned on by him! Nothing else seemed to matter anymore because all I wanted was him. I wanted Kyle. He pushed my shoulders back so I was laying on the desk. He grabbed my thighs and pulled me closer to him as he continued to ravish my lips, moving to my neck before sucking on my sweet spot. Moaning loudly I arched my back up, pushing my body in to his. My hips jerked, hitting against his erection. I moaned again. He's so hard and I'm so turned on! "Spencer." He growled out, pulling away and panting as he leaned over me, his arms on either side of my thighs. I panted as well, the lust starting to disappear. "Kyle..." I panted quietly. He huffed one last deep breath before looking at me. "I'm sorry. I got carried away." He backed off of me, stepping away and giving me my space. Blushing I sat up. "I should go explain to the pack..." He mumbled. I nodded, still fairly dazed by the abrupt stop. We were so close to actually mating! Smirking I stood up. "If it makes you feel any better I rather enjoyed it." I teased before scurrying out of his office and to his room where I promptly took a cold shower and then laid back on the bed. By the time Kyle was done it was night time. He collapsed on the bed, half on me and half on the bed. I giggled and stroked his head. "I think the pack took the news well..." He mumbled. I kissed his head. "Good. Now rest easy." I whisper. "I love you." I added and with that we both fell asleep. Morning came with no remorse. Waking up I noticed how Kyle was already gone. Damn I liked it when I woke up before him. That way I could get a glimpse of his sleeping face. Standing up I stretched and then headed downstairs where I grabbed some cereal and age some breakfast. Where is everyone? Finishing up my cereal I drank the extra milk before placing my bowl in the sink. I'll do dishes later if I have time. Walking back up to the top floor I went to Kyle's office. Smelling his scents knew he was in there. I knocked on the door and heard him say to come in. Opening the door I made my way in. Once I was in I closed the door once more and scurried over to the desk where Kyle was slaving away at. "What ya doing?" I asked curiously. He didn't lookup at me. "Paper work. I have tons of it since we were attacked twice and we have a negotiating term with the eastern pack about the condemning of its pack member who was the leader of the first attack. I still need information about the boy you saved. What was his side of things? We need more details. I'm sorry could you leave I'm busy." He then picked up his phone. I frowned. Kyle is super busy... Sighing I left the room and went back downstairs to find the boy in question. I smiled. "Hey there little guy. How's things been? I was gone for a while, why don't you tell me what you've been up to." I crouched down next to him. He smiled and hugged me. "I'm glad your back! The alpha told us about your ambush. I was worried you were hurt. You weren't hurt right?" He looked at me with so much concern that my heart almost stopped. Such a sweet little boy! I smiled softly. "I'm absolutely fine. I was just worried about. Did you keep everyone in line while we were gone?" I asked, trying my hardest to ease his mind. The last thing he needs is not heart break. His eyes lit up. "Me and Aunt Caroline made cookies and she wants to send me off to the public school but I'm a bit scared to do that..." His head dropped and he looked sad. I frowned. I need to cheer him up! "Well that's wonderful! I can't wait to taste those cookies! You know I'm going to public school as well. It's not as bad as everyone makes it out to be. You know my secret for hiding my fear when I go to school?" He looked up at me. "What?!" His eyes wider full of curiosity. I smiled. "I take a deep breath and then close my eyes. I count to 5 and then let all my breath out. If I'm still nervous then I take my hand and press it here-" I grab his hand and press it to his chest, where his heart should be. I smiled. I didn't do this technique anymore but I use to when I was a child. "And then I repeat the mentioned steps except this time while I count to number five I think if my happy place and why it ales me so happy and then I release my breath. My heart usually calms down and I'm able to go on. If you ever have a bad or scary moment you can try that. Tell me how it works for you, okay?" He smiled happily and nodded. I smirked and stood up. "You know what. Let's do something together! So you already made cookies with your aunt? Well mind if I come over to your house and eat some? I've been dying to eat something sweet and the fact you made them makes it even more better." I said happily. The little boy smiled and grabbed my hand. "Yay! Come on let's go!" And soon after he pulled me all the way to his house. I laughed and finally gave up on trying to get him to slow down. Silly kid...