Breathe

7

"you okay?"

Jax asked,

and all I could do

was nod

because he was talking to me

he was talking to me

and nobody

had asked me if I was okay

in a long,

long

time.

He kinda gave me

a half smile

and said,

"you sure?"

and I had to bite my lip

and look away

after I said yes,

because it was a lie

that I was tired of saying

over

and

over.

The only person

that knew I wasn't okay

was in a coma

and I wasn't even sure

if she could hear me

when I talked to her

about everything that

was going wrong..

I just want my sister back

I just want to go back in time

to when we first moved.

I wouldn't leave Daiha alone

and I wouldn't be friends with Mary

or date Presley..

I would stay the hell away from him

and just talk to my sister

and make sure she was okay,

but the past is something

that can't be changed..

I just have to live

with the guilt

and the regret

that I was part of the reason

Daiha was depressed

and anorexic

and cut herself...

It took me a minute

to remember

that Jax was still standing there

I was kind of surprised

that he hadn't left.

"I'm fine, really"

I tried to convince him,

but I don't think

he believed me.

"Are you new?"

I asked,

trying to change the subject,

because I hadn't seen him before

other than on the rougher side of town..

"yeah,"