A Change Of Heart

Chapter 37

"I love these boots! Should I get them?" Brianna asks, as she holds up a pair of black boots. "I should get them, right?"

"You've said that about every shoe you've seen so far. Pick a shoe and get it already." Raven says before she rolls her eyes at Brianna. She walks away and begins to look at the clothes that were by us.

"What about you, Zuri? What do you think?" Brianna turns to look at me before she shoots an angry glare at Raven. "Do you like them?"

"They are really cute...but do you want to spend fifty dollars on shoes right now?" I ask her.

I can tell that she is contemplating in her head whether the shoes are worth it or not. But she luckily comes to a conclusion. "Yep, they're worth it."

"Okay, so get them."

"I am!" She pops up from her seat and rushes towards the line to buy the shoes. Brianna was a shopaholic, especially when it comes to shoes so I am not really surprised by her impulsive behavior. If anything, I expected her to at least buy two pairs but she didn't.

It was a Saturday afternoon and Raven, Brianna, and I decided to go shopping. I didn't get much, just a few items. The other two were going on a shopping spree it seemed. It's been a few weeks since we had our argument and we've been on pretty good terms. I decided to move past it and we've been doing pretty well. We've been making more time for each other, even if it means calling each other on the phone for a few minutes or having a mini sleepover. I recognize that it is a two way thing and if I want them in my life I have to make an effort and vice versa. And I have, so everything seems to be going pretty well.

I still haven't forgotten what they said about my relationship or about me, but I am trying to not let it really get to me. I know that I haven't changed since I started dating Zane, and if they really felt that they liked me better before I was dating Zane, then I can honestly say that I don't really care. I know that deep down I haven't changed in a bad way and real friends would see that I am obviously dealing with a completely opposite person than me and it takes time to adjust to that. Zane really needs me right now and if any of them were in the situation that he was in I would do the same for them. But they're not.

And besides, Brianna never really liked Zane and I's relationship when we were just friends so I can't expect her to understand now that we are actually a couple. But then again, Brianna is always running her mouth about things I never asked for her opinion on so it doesn't really bother me much, anyways. I'm almost used to it. Almost. None of them know him like I do and I like it that way. Zane doesn't care what people think of him and neither should I.

As for Brianna, I know that I can't let her words get to me. I do not believe that Zane will hurt me. I am actually more confident in a relationship now than ever. Of course he's dealing with some hard stuff and could break up with me at any moment, but I know that Zane needs me. We work so well together, better than either of us ever expected and we like it that way. I still haven't told Zane what Brianna said that to me because I don't need any extra drama. It's not worth it.

Plus, I will not let other people's negative thoughts have any effect on a relationship I know more about than them. If they don't want to be there for me if Zane ever does hurt me then that is fine. No company is better than the wrong company. And I don't want their comfort if I know it isn't sincere. I am not angry anymore at either of their words, I am just aware that they said them. I am a forgiver but I am not a forgetter.

They're my friends and as much as I hate to say it...I need them. It's been us forever and I won't let them go because of a petty argument or a boyfriend. It didn't happen with Will and so it won't happen with Zane. They're like family to me (even though Brianna actually is family) and I want to keep it that way as long as I can. So as of now I want to keep things a good as they can get. And so far, things have been great.