shadows of you [#1]

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i wonder if i'll ever be able to find someone whose heart is all i can hear when i hold them in my arms because with you, it's all a rush, and it's never quite close enough to be something else.

but perhaps my subconscious does not want to hear anyone's heart beat softly because it's something personal, only to be shared when two people are ready to take on something more than what they have.

but maybe i subconsciously hug others in my own way because i'll always hug another with my chin resting on their shoulder or with my neck nearing the fabric that covers their skin from the outside light, at least when it comes to someone who has captured my heart in the slightest of ways.

someone just like you, my old friend, if i may call you that.