I am scaring myself
I don't know how to put that
Any other way.
I'm afraid of myself lately.
I eat to much sugar.
My stomach hurts constantly.
And every letter, every number I put on the page
They all look wrong.
I stay up till all hours
And I can't wake up for even longer.
Nothing is pleasurable anymore.
Everything looks disgusting
Tastes funny
Smells horrible.
Sounds completely different then it did.
But my eyes
They are the worst.
The letters and numbers are wrong.
Not when I look at them.
Not all of them.
Just the most important ones.
Every word is the most important
Every word you say is dangerous
Every word you say is wonderful
And yet
All I can think is
They all are wrong
Where I once had a haven
I only find an empty hollow
That hurts.
And that is my worst nightmare.
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Cacoethes Scribendi
PoetryA collection of poems, new and old. My first collection of poetry.
