Bottled-Up Confessions

Nothing To You

To someone who I thought I knew so well. It's sad to think we were once so close...and now we act like strangers.

"All you are is mean. And a liar. And pathetic. And alone in life. And mean. And mean. And mean. And mean." - Mean by Taylor Swift

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Nothing To You

Thought it would be me and you together

Be the best of friends forever

I guess ten years was all we could have

Looking back, I could've swore

That I didn't notice how fragile the line was before

Until I stood there watching it break in half

Now I'm sitting here all alone

Oh how could I have ever known

That this utopia we created would crumble down?

And all I have to hold onto are flashbacks

Of me and you and the ten years that we had

They're just scattered memories all over the ground

I'm trying to not let you go

But it seems you wouldn't care if I had done so

You make me feel like an outsider that doesn't belong

What happened to me being the first to spill secrets to?

You don't even get around to me when you do

Why do I act like it hasn't been hurting for so long?

I guess I still have a small glimpse of faith

That you'll realize you're making the biggest mistake

Treating the girl you've known for a lifetime like she doesn't matter

But that hope is slowly fading away

And I'm killing even more inside every day

Can't you even see that my heart's beginning to shatter?

Since the day I met you, you're aren't the same

And frankly, I don't really like this change

Because now I'm not even in your big picture

I'm more of a sideline girl, aren't I?

Someone you'd turn to to say that everything will be alright

Where would you be if I needed you in the future?

Now I finally can see who you've become

The pain's beating on me like a drum

You're not the girl I once knew

Don't think you can say sorry and things will be okay

I won't forgive you no matter how many words you say

I'm done being nothing to you