“Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you / Counting my footsteps, praying the floor won’t fall through” - Dear John by Taylor Swift
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We Both Thought You Had Me
Wrapping my hands over my knees as the silent tears subside
How did you, of all people, manage to take the best of me?
You had me smiling for no reason, I never thought to complain
I guess it was my own stupid mistake for being so naïve
Those days spent on the bathroom floor
Thinking about you for hours
As my mind filled with storybook fairytales
And how you’d rescue the damsel from the tower
All of that wasted time simmers into a pot of denial
You were the last person I thought who would do this
But you played me like a pawn in your sick twisted games
Didn’t you realize I was too innocent?
This was all just some contest to you wasn’t it?
Whoever won got to see the other fall apart
I was never given the rulebook and lost in a blink of an eye
And the first place trophy was my broken heart
I had fallen too deep in your arms to see anything clear
I regret when I closed my eyes on the sad truth of reality
I thought you liked me, I thought you wanted me, I thought wrong
Off with some other girl, you left me with a string of used-to-be memories
When did I ever say you could toil with my heart until it broke?
You said I could never understand, so tell me what I couldn’t see
Your masked face, the fake smiles, all of the half-truths?
The way you had me wrapped around your finger, the way you played me?
Now five months gone, washed away like a rainstorm
The disbelief still lingers, but I’m not as broken as I was before
You can’t come crying back, possibly thinking everything’s okay
Second chances for you ain’t knocking on your door
And now looking back, we both thought you had me
But before you could say checkmate, I flew away free
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