The Sweet Desire

Chapter 45

Chapter 45

Michael’s POV

I slammed my hands down on the roof of my car, I was so mad that I was actually considering killing someone. I want to kill Ethan. I want to beat the $hit out of him senseless. That asshole! I barely breathe through the surge of emotions that were flowing through my body.  

  

At si Sarah? Hindi ako makapaniwalang nagawa niya sa akin iyon. Siya pa lang ang kauna-unahang babaeng nagustuhan ko. Ang kauna-unahang babaeng minahal ko pero ginamit lang niya ako. Akala ko iba siya pero nagkamali pala ako.

Mahal na Mahal ko siya. Sobra. Pagkatapos pinaglaruan lang pala niya ako?

$hit. That hurts!

She’d used me. I was the one who uses girl before.   I don’t think karma will get back and kick me on the balls like this. But it did. 

Ibinunton ko lahat ng galit ko sa pintuan ng kotse ko. Paulit-ulit ko itong galit na pinagsisipa.  

Sobra ang nararamdaman kong galit sa mga sandaling ito. 

I could taste the anger in my mouth and I just wanna spit the $hit out. All this time she’s just using me? For what? For a f*cking petty love affair? She’d just lead me on but in reality she still loves that freaking Ethan? Dapat noon ko pa nalaman. Na lahat pala ng namagitan sa amin ay puro lamang kasinungalingan. 

Maiintindihan ko pa sana kung may nagawa akong mali o malaking kasalanan sa kanya. Pero nagpakabuti ako. Pinilit kong magbago para sa kanya. I tried to be a perfect boyfriend. I don’t understand why she did that.

I climbed in my car furiously and closed my eyes. I sat back with my head resting back on the seat. Immediately, the pictures of Sarah and Ethan filled my damn head. It’s just so sweet how Sarah’s arms wrapped perfectly around his body. How her face buried on his chest. How Ethan held her hands while they were having a romantic conversation on those swings. How she planted a kiss on his cheek.

I didn’t want to recall all these but they are stuck in my memory and it hurts like $hit. Maybe if I would smash my head on a concrete wall, maybe I could get those images out of my head.

 Tang-ina! Saan ako nagkamali?!

Out of frustrations and anger, I smashed my fist onto the stirring wheel furiously making my hand hurt.

“F*ck it!” I growled

Ang sabi niya walang ibig sabihin ang mga pictures na iyon. Paano ko paniniwalaan iyon kung sa una pa lang ay nagsinungaling na siya sa akin? Dapat sinabi niya sa akin noong una palang hindi ba? Pero hindi, hindi niya ginawa.