Til' Its Gone

Lourdes

"I love you Marcus." she sang in my ear. I couldn't help but smile when she said that. I wrapped my arms around her petite waist. She laid her head on my chest and we began to dance to the music playing from her radio.

"I love you to, Lourdes." I replied. As I leaned my head in to kiss her, I fell off of my bed. I shook my head in shame as I realized that I was daydreaming about my ex girlfriend again.

Lourdes was literally the best girlfriend I ever had. She was a true ride or die. When I messed up, which was often, she stayed. She always gave me my space when I wanted it. She never jumped to conclusions. She was always there to listen and help me through my problems, but most importantly she didn't judge me. And to top it all off, she was beyond beautiful. But I lost her due to my insubordinate actions. I messed up. Big time.

Ever heard of that saying, "You don't know what you have until its gone."? Well, I never realized the true meaning of it until I lost the most important person in my life. I took her for granted. I played with her heart. Now I'm suffering the consequences for what I did. Before I say what I did, let me start from the beginning.