I NEED A FUCKING BATH I FEEL SO FILTHY AND DIRTY AND I FEEL SO DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF FOR ALL THE THINGS IVE BEEN DOING BUT I FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD I LOOK SO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE MY FUCKING LIFE I DONT KNOW HOW I CAN BE HAPPY AND SAD BOTH AT THE SAME TIME BUT I AM IM HAPPY AND SAD BOTH AT THE SAME TIME IT DOESNT MATTER HOW IT DOESNT MATTER WHY AND NOW IM REALISING THAT THIS POEM IS SHITTY AS MY OTHER POEMS ARE AND IM WONDERING HOW DARE I CALL THIS A POEM WHEN I CAN BARELY WIND WORDS OUT OF MY MOUTH AND NOW IM THINKING ABOUT YOU AND I JUST FUCKING MISS YOU IM SO HAPPY IM SEEING YOU TOMORROW BUT I KNOW THAT YOU WONT BE SEEING ME BECAUSE HOW COULD YOU WHEN THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE TO BLIND YOU
