Poems I found in Jamal's Room :(

They Said It Would Get Better

Title of Poem: They Said It Would Get Better

They said it would get better,

Just one little pill a day,

To make the pain go away,

I know I should give it time.

But what's the point of trying,

When I still felt like dying,

There was no hope left inside,

I numbed myself with the rain.

I had forgotten how to be alive,

Everything was dead inside,

What other choice did I have,

I only saw one way out.

I smiled as the blood flowed,

Pooling into a puddle of relief,

The one time I felt happy,

Was as I lay on the floor dying.

I closed my eyes and drifted away,

Thinking this was finally the end,

I woke up in hell screaming,

Why couldn't they let me go.

Time passed by and I hid,

Nobody knew the truth I kept,

The scars did not fade away,

Things were worse than before.

Their little pills didn't work,

So I tried a little pill of my own,

It didn't take long to discover,

Happiness can be found.

In every drink and pill taken,

Nobody even knew,

The darkness growing inside,

Slowly started to consume me.

Control slipping through my fingers,

As I fell further down,

I screamed and begged to die,

My thoughts getting darker.

Trying to find a way out of hell,

Feeling the madness take over,

Lips blue and fingers numb,

I took a step towards the sun,

Hoping the light would save me...

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I was reading this..and I realized that i never knew that jamal took anti-depressants..i read this a couple of times and knew what it was talking about </3 all this time i thought jamal was a happy boy -starts to cry- i..i never knew he took..pills..to help him with depression.. </3 ]'; i found a whole stash of pills hidden in his room