Breaking Point

Chapter 18

~Em's PoV~

I lay on my side in my bed, my mind completely focused on the textbook in front of me. Almost. Ian is laying just behind me, and is slowly drawing his hand through my short hair, smoothing it down before bringing his palm back to the top of my head and starting all over again. I’ve had a very busy week, most days I was filming both Persuasive and Hidden; I have a shooting with Dominic this weekend, and I have three mid-term exams to study for before USC let us out for Christmas.

Ian’s long and deft fingers are a distraction. I’m tired enough without him relaxing me further as he slowly massages my scalp. I stretch my arms out above my head as I stop propping my head up. Instead, I lay it down on my arm, slowly closing my eyes. He doesn’t stop with his fingers; either I’m more aware of them or he’s pushing harder.

Ian leans forward, not stopping his ministrations, pushing his head up from behind to place a kiss just below my ear. I shiver, the touch light and swift. My eyes remain closed and I can feel myself drifting off to sleep, content in my surroundings. Ian’s free arm slips under me, pulling me back so that he can hug me from behind. I start to let go, secure in his grip. He whispers, slowly, his voice quiet as if I’m already asleep; “I love you Precious.”

I nod just slightly, showing that I’ve heard him and confirm it even though I’m too tired to create a response. I breathe in, I breathe out, I repeat my actions. Its like I’m reaching out to grip sleep that is standing there patiently, waiting for me to pick it up.

My alarm clock buzzes. It is the worst sound in the world. I hate my alarm clock, that spoil sport.  Ian sits up reluctantly, his large hand reaching over to cease the annoying noise. Before he can lie back down so we can get to where we were, I’ve sat up, rubbing my eyes to try and wake myself up. Ian puts his legs on either side of mine as he reaches out to hug me from behind.

His arms slide around my waist, locking over my stomach. “Emilee, you should sleep.” I shake my head as he continues. “You’ve been going and going, you need a break. Come on, just a short nap..?” I lean back, putting my hands over his arms. “I can’t- I set that alarm to finish my study time. I have to go to work now. I just, need to wake up first.”

Ian kisses my cheek before he whispers, “Your wish is my command.” His hand rubs up and down my arm as he starts to kiss down my jawline, staying completely away from my mouth. My eyes watch him from the corner of my mouth before they close almost naturally. He’s reached the end of my jaw. He puts his mouth at a weak spot, the place where the curve of my jaw meets my neck.  He sucks on it as he keeps his hands rubbing back and forth on my arms.

He sucks hard enough that I’m positive it’s going to leave a mark, but it’s not so hard that it hurts. He leans back slightly and pecks it once before sucking again, once and a while just barely grazing his teeth over it. He puts his hands back over my waist and pulls me impossibly close to him, removing any distance between our bodies. He kisses down my neck, smirking a little as I sigh. He plants a kiss on my bare shoulder, and then I feel his fingers start to lower the strap of my top.

That makes sure to waken me up completely, although his kisses pretty much did that already. “Alright Ian… thank you. I’m up now.” I lean forward, ready to jump out of his arms, dress, and leave. I can’t delay much longer, or I’ll be late. I am not allowing today to be one of those days. I hate those days. But apparently Ian has other ideas about letting me go.

Ian’s grip grows stronger as he speaks in a lower pitch. “You can’t stay? Please?” As much as I would love to do that, I absolutely can’t. I’m actually a little relieved that I have to leave, because I know what probably would have happened if I had stayed. “No... Sorry baby. I have to get ready and then leave.” I reluctantly pry Ian’s hands off of my waist.