The Player Gets Played

Lost Him

Charlie made me jump and sung his arm around my waist. I slapped him off of me. this wasn;t the right time. I re'-thought about what I was doing, but then Drew looked round at us. I laughed like Charlie had just told a joke. Now your the player the voice in my head mocked me. It was sadly, stupidly right. What was I doing? I had no intrest in Dre, and I will keep it at that, no matter how hard it was.

"Charlie I..."

"Shhhh," he kissed me and I tried to pull away. The horrid taste of smoke lingerd into my mouth. The achole smell wafted from him. I gaged, buut he just pulled me in closer. I struggled under the pressure of his hands on my shoulders, I wouldn't be surprised if I get bruises on there once he was done. I heard a voice and what sounded like a smack. Charlie tore away from me. I looked round to see, not only Drew, but another good looking guy aswell. The other guy stepped towards me,

"Hi I'm Josh," he smiled.

"jessica" I replyed. Drew was ganging up on Charlie, Josh pulled my hand,

"Come on, this is gunna get messy!" We ran behind the 'eat all you can' table."

"Be my first friend!" I pleaded and tugged on his arm. He smurked in a friendly way,

"Isn't that what Kindergartners say to the people they first meet?"

"yes"

"Sure," he smiled so pleasantly. I heard kicking, screaming, and then a horrific splash. There was a spa on the upper deck, not on this lower deck. I dreaded wih all my might, hoping it  wasn't what I thought it was. I felt Josh brush past me and out into the shouting and screaming. I heard

"OVER BOARD!" But that's all my ears would let me take in. I peaked up through the table, seeing every eye over the boats edge, looking down upon the lapping sea against the boat. Drew wasn;t to be seen anywhere, Vharlie was crouched in a corner, out of breath, Josh was running round like a loony yelling Drews name. What had happend?!

I poked my head up over the table, and pushed myself up with my hands. We were always moving on this ship, so no doubt, what ever, or who ever was over board, we weren;t going to get them back. Josh came back, a little shaken.

"All I saw was Drews jacket - his grey hoody." He looked ghostly white. I couldn't bare it. Josh saw my face and pulled me into a hug.  This boy was becoming a closer friend by the minute. It was so nice to have a boy hugging me without trying to ask me out, becomea Player towards me, to even kiss me, Joshs hug was just full of warmth. I loved this boy. Then I also loved Drew. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!

I can't let Josh get hurt, yet if it was true that Drew was over board, Josh was the one that's going to help me. But then that would be betraying my head and heart, because in fact, I had a litle feeling, right the bottom of my gut, that was saying I had a spark for Drew. I felt like I was the Player, not knowing which boy to have. I shook my head, trying not to think about myself like that. Josh came up beside me -

"I hear you do that alot," he grinned.

"Do what?"

"Have moments where you hit yourself, shake your head or accidently shoutout loud. It's wierd." He smiled playfully at me.

"Huumm.." I was deep in thought. But he did make me laugh.

The poeple sceaming in terror made me hit back to reality. Drew was long gone - maybe even dead.

"You think...Drew is overboard?"

"I don't know," Josh's eyes brows creased in concern as he looked at me. "Don't worry!" He pulled me into a warm hug.