"I'm thinking about telling my mom. I don't like what they say. I'm very scared. I want to die. I don't want to die, but they tell me I do. I think I agree with them. I don't like it. I wonder how Kaneki is? I don't want to die. He wouldn't care. Maybe I should tell my mom. I can't tell her. She's think I was crazy. I'm scared of telling her. I want to die. I don't want her to think I'm crazy. She has so much going on. I Don't need to add to that. I wonder if Kaneki is worried. Maybe he misses me. Of course he doesn't. Who would miss me? Nobody. I want to die. Would he think I was crazy if he read this? I'm sure he would. I don't want to move. My doctor's appointment is supposed to be next Monday. I don't want to go. I want to lay here and die. My mom says I have to. What if Kaneki sees me? I don't want to make him see me. I want to die. I can't tell the doctor. The doctor would think I was crazy. I'll just lay here. Kaneki doesn't miss me. My parents don't care. Maybe I can just die here."
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Hide's Journal/ The Wilted Sunflower
FanfictionWorking title: "but that's okay"/"I guess I deserve it"/"They say it helps" Character: Hide Headcanon: ADHD Hide taking 40mg Vyvanse "I started taking vyvanse a few weeks ago. They say it's supposed to help. I guess it does..." =====================...
