As I am slowing getting up I fell a arm around my waist I look over and see that's its Derek still here I look over to see the time its 10:00 as I turn around I am looking at Derek because he looks so cute when he sleeps and so peaceful as I am kinda rubbing his back he wakes and he smiles at me the way no one smiled at me before the way I just melt when he smiles. " good morning babe" " morning" as were lying here happy and everything I can hear that my cousin jasmine is up. I'll get up soon just right know i am comfortable Here with him. As I he pulls me closer to him as we start kissing all I feel is his tough in my mouth and him kinda getting hard as I Clim on top of him my legs are split apart as I scratch at his back. But as i see as were kissing and I no that its perfect my body and my heart always push him away my problem start kicking in again so back to reality as I slowly stop kissing him I get off of him I no that he is probably thinking why do i stop us from kissing everytime but I Just I cant do it. I gusse i just have to tell him about why i stop it evertime so he knows what he is getting himslef into. so here I go I have to tell him why I act like this.
" Derek I need to talk to you"
" sure what is it if its about sex then idc when we do it I am not in a rush your not ready I understand"
" no Derek its not that its about why I always push you away"
" OK what's wrong"
OK here we go. I am scared to tell him well I am not going to tell him the hole thing just about why I always push him away that's it let's hope he take's it or he leaves let's see.
I take a deep breath " Derek m the reason I have been so distant and not staying in the moment is becaus well I am scared I have never felt like this before with a guy well with anyone before I mean there are other reason but I am not ready to say it yet soo"
"Selena its ok i understand and we don't have to go fast and I get why your scared don't be I am with you if you need something or afraid just pull me a side ok and i have to tell you something too"
" OK what"
" mm well I have never slept over at a girls house before or Evan called a lot I fell different when i am with you andwhen I am with you I never won't to leave you and when I am with you I just idk how to explain it but I really like you."
" well I like you too I feel the same way around you but I told you before that I am scarred"
As he was telling me all that I don't no how to treat that and I don't won't to hurt him all these problems and all this if he asked me to be with him or he asked me out I would probably say no I mean I hardly no him we didn't even go on a date OK anyways I have to wake up get out of bed because its time to go for a run I am going to try to go for a run every morning I am really hunger Evan though I would stay here with him all day omg I just realized that I am slowly starting to like Derek but I am not going to tell him so here we go I look in to his eyes as he is smiles at me omg its like heaven as I turn around I look at the time its 12:30 as I am checking my texts I feel his hands moving to my up my waist as he is holding on to my waist I turn around to face him as i notice how close to him i am.
" Derek"
" yea Selena"
" m I going to go now and go for a walk so you have to go though my window because I don't want my cousins asking questions"
As I get up I take of my Pajamas off for some reason I fell so comfortable around him weird as take of my pants off and put on shorts I put my hair up as I am about to walk away from the bed all I feel is Derek grabbing my hands and pulling me closer to him as he pulls me closer were kissing like really passionate as he picks me up and puts me on his waist as we keep kissing I feel his tough in my mouth as I feel him putting his hands up my shirt as I am putting my hands in his hair then I move down to his back and start scratching his back he starts take my shirt off but as he is going to my heart always makes me stop him well its not my heart its my problem. As I stop him I grab my shirt and and put it on he is looking at me like why the hell do I keep stopping him but i told him already as I get up and put my shirt on I just walk out the door and I don't say anything I don't no what to say after that I mean he probably thinks what the hell she is a loser I can't get close to her without here pushing me away. Evan though he said he says he likes me and irs ok to take things slow but I can't stop thinking I mean dose he mean what he says or what. I go down stairs I walk in the kichten I put the kettle on I see Catherine and jasmine looking at me
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Romancethis book is about this girl named Salena she is 18 years old she lives with her older sister Raven who is 19. there parents left when they were young so Salena and Raven never really had a parent figure all Selena life she has difficulty with lett...
