Christina
The next morning I woke up with a slight headache, from the previous night. I lifted my head up to glance at my zebra print clock, reading 9:10 a.m. My shift at the hospital didn’t start until 3:00, so it gave me some time to pull myself together. Kevin’s words played over and over in my mind, so I got up out of my bed and went over to my vanity mirror to see for myself. At 5 ft 7, I stood with a thick frame, but not fat at all. It made me wonder if he just wanted to hurt me, because if that was his goal, he did it.
As I began to get lost in my thought I heard my door unlocking, it must be Kevin, I thought. “Chris!” I heard my moms voice instead, “...I’m in hear ma” I said, she walked into my room with her shades on. “Why didn’t you answer that phone?” she asked, “I was sleeping ma” I said walking back over to my bed. “Well I wanted you and yo-” she stopped once I glanced at her, “Christina..what wrong?” she asked sitting next to me on the bed. “..I’m fine” I said trying to hold in the tears I wanted to shed. “No your not what happened?” she asked me, “Kevin and I broke up” I said.
“Aww sweety...you wanna talk about it?” she asked, “No, I ‘m good, have you talked Christian?” I asked changing the subject to my little sister, “Yeah, we went out to dinner last night, and she let me meet her new boyfriend” she said. “I wanted you to come, but I know you had plans” she said back, and I know she wanted me to explain to her what happened, but I saying my boyfriend felt I was to fat didn’t sound to appealing . She ended up staying over until it was time for me to go to work.
Now I had to put a smile on my face, because I was going around people that were fighting for their lives, and a lot of them had every reason to breakdown, but they were holding it together. When I walked into the ICU Department of the hospital, I greeted the staff sitting around the computers, “Goodevening” I said as I signed in. “Hey girl, how was last night?” Megan, one of my bestfriends asked, “A blur” I said back. She looked at my face and her smile dropped, but she didn’t say anything. “We’ll talk” I said to her, as I grabbed my clip board and headed to my first patients room.
The door was closed, so I lightly knocked before opening it, and I saw one of my favorite ladies laying in the bed“Ahhh! Mrs. Paulina, you back!” I said as I ran over to her bedside. Mrs. Paulina was a older, but not to old women who was one of the funniest characters I had ever met. “Yep..
I’m back in the hell hole” she said laughing a little as we hugged, “How you been honeybun” she said referring to one of her many nicknames for me. “I’m good, what about you?” I asked, “Well, I haven’t been eating the best things and my diabetes is getting bad” she said, “But I don’t want to talk about me about me, what’s going on with you?” she asked.
“Nothing really” I simply said, “Oh girl don’t lie to me, I know you, and you walked in here all sad until you seen me, what’s wrong baby?” she asked. I hesitated a little, “...Kevin and I broke up” I said. “What did he do now?” she asked, “He felt he could do better than...this fat girl” I said laughing. “With what? That animal, gone find another animal like his self, but he did’t deserve you anyway, I promise you, there’s a man who is going to love a loyal, beautiful women like yourself. And I don’t see a piece of fat on your body, now his babymama, cheesayyy” she said shaking her head causing me to laugh. It was the first time in a while, and it felt good.
“You see that, you need to get you somebody who only wants to see that smile, not somebody that makes you bury it” she said to me. For a while longer we chatted and were joined by other staff members who enjoyed Mrs. Paulina’s company as well.
Once my shift was over at the hospital, I headed back to my apartment. I locked the door and threw my keys on the counter on my way to my room. With a few things out of place, I knew Kevin had been here, his row of shoes was now gone, and there was now a big space in my closet where his clothing once was.
As I went back over to my bed I noticed a picture on my bed, I picked it up and the word mines was written in fancy cursive over Kevin, his son, and his babies mother Becka. “Oh really?” I said aloud, as I ripped the picture up, my happy mood was staring to change..fast. Because I really didn’t understand how a man could really turn on you...for no reason. He was tryna break me. As I started to get caught up in my feeling, somebody started banging on the door like the goddamn police.
When I got to the door, I peeked and saw my girls standing out there. So I unlocked the door and moved to the side letting them in, they came parading in with their tight fitted dresses and heels. “Where yall going?” I asked, “ We’re taking you out somewhere babygirl, so get up out them smelly clothes and go get fresh” Gianna said. Without asking any questions, I went get fab, because they came at the right time.
Once I was dressed we headed out for a night on the town. Paula’s boo, Jermaine, invited us to his listening party out here in Miama. When we walked in the music was blasting some of his new music, “Follow me” Paula said leading us to the V.I.P. section. The first person I spotted as I entered was Kevin..he was sitting with Becka in his lap. Instantly I felt myself getting mad, but before I could say anything I heard Gianna’s mouth. “Why you got this bitch sitting in your lap, your girl is right there!” she said pointing at me. “That’s not my girl no more” he said laughing a little, “I surely don’t fuck with him no more” I said back. “You told them why?” he asked as he took a sip of his drink, and Becka began laughing.
“Because you don’t know what a real women is, you’d rather be with a bitch that want you for for what you got, and as far as you saying fat...nigga I’m far from it, but your lil dick ass ain’t worth a shit, you did me a favor” I said to him. “Oh it’s lil cause I stopped fucking you” he said, “No, it always has been, plus it was wack, you think a bitch gone beg for wack dick?” I asked him. “But she loving it, and probably suckin it” I said referring to Becka, people in the area began laughing at him.
And he didn’t find it funny at all, “Can’t take it huh?” I asked him, “Bitch stop playing with my man” Becka said rising up from his lap. “You feeling some type of way, huh” I said as I swung the first lick on her, hitting her straight in the mouth. She wasn’t ready for me, and I had so much anger built up for her since she came into my life. I found myself trying to stomp her face in, but I was being pulled back by a group of guys.
“I wasn’t gone touch you, but your fat little white ass been asking for it, now play with me again” I said trying to smack her again. An unfamiliar voice was telling me, she wasn’t worth it, and it didn’t matter. The damage was done, and we were soon thrown out of the club.
