Week One
It's been one hundred sixty-seven hours,
thirty-one minutes, as many seconds as it takes
for my lungs to fill with air waiting for his scent.
It never comes. It can't traverse the 5, 695 miles,
neither can I. Drive I-40 through Texas, stop in Louisiana
dip my feet in the Gulf of Mexico and wonder if the sun
shines as brightly on him, breeze ruffles his hair and lifts
his jacket like my dress flutters in humidity and minnows
dance around my feet. Roll my windows down in North Carolina,
tell a stranger my story in Connecticut. I'll dive into the Atlantic,
stare across the vast space separating me from the comfort of his bed
and his kisses on my forehead. Memories of that Chinese restaurant
patio, sitting next to the heater, his jacket sliding over my arms snuggled
in wicker chairs and fleeting eye contact. Breathe in salt water, his body
wash how he complained about the hot shower water. Dunk my head.
Feeling of him holding the shower head over me, dark tendrils blocking
my vision "okay, that's enough" , his laugh. "I can picture
your face right now." So can I. Smiling under starlight, staring over at me
and my cheeks flush from cold ocean water and regret that I didn't kiss him
goodbye. I can't get there. I'm stuck in a desert and watching
beautiful sunsets and hearing coyotes howl and wonder if they cry for lost,
not love. Two strangers meeting under florescent lighting, spending days
feeling him move my hair from my shoulder, kiss my earlobe. I howl.
Silently, patiently. One hundred sixty-seven hours, fifty-five minutes,
as many seconds as it takes for him to turn off the water, raise my head,
watch the sun set over mountains he'll never see.
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Manic - A Book of Poetry
PoetryAn ever-growing collection of poetry from the racing thoughts of a twenty one year old female.