SLIPPING THROUGH MY FINGERS
✧･ﾟTWENTY SEVEN
iMessage
luke
hi
hey
u busy?
nope
why what's up?
can we talk? pls
I'll come over in 5?
come through the basement
READ AT 6:32 PM
Cristina sat in her room, which was in the basement of her family home. Thankfully she was the only one down there, so it was always easy to sneak Luke in.
She knew if she told her parents, they would obviously let him come over. But she didn't want them to know, not wanting to get their hopes up about them being together again.
" Hey", the voice startling her, taking her away from her thoughts.
There he stood, his usual grey sweatpants and a black hoodie on his body, his hair slightly wet from the heavy snow outside.
" Hey", she said, sort of awkwardly.
It pained them both to talk in such an awkward tone to each other, but, that's the point they were at currently.
Luke sat at the end of her bed, unlike his old position in her room, which used to be under the covers with her watching a movie she claimed they'd never watched before.
" So, what'd you wanna talk about?",
Cristina scoffed, " Seriously, Luke? What do you think I wanna talk about?".
She tried to be angry, but it came out in more of a hurt tone, like she was searching for an apology.
He sighed, throwing his head back a bit. " I know. I know what you want to talk about it",
" Okay, so talk about it?",
" I know what you want to talk about, Cris. But I just don't know how to talk about it", Luke mumbled.
" Is that why you haven't talked to me? Because you don't know how to talk about it?", she asked.
Luke shrugged, " I guess. I never know how to talk about feelings and stuff, you know that",
Cristina nodded, " I do. But that's not an excuse, Luke. You stopped talking to me. I don't care that we stopped hooking up, but it's kind of a dick move. As my best friend, you usually are supposed to communicate",
" I know!", he said, " But I can't. I'm sorry, Cris. I just can't, and I don't know why",
He stood up, turning to face her as she stood in front of him. Cristina looked up at him, a look of guilt on his face.
" I can't explain how you make me feel, and how nervous you make me", Luke groaned.
" Nervous? How do I make you nervous? How is that involved in what we're talking about?",
Luke sighed, " Because. You make me so nervous, that I can't even talk to you about how I feel. I don't want to sound cringe, or needy, or clingy. It's really difficult, the effect you have on people, Cris",
She wasn't sure what to say, not sure if she should feel flattered or insulted.
" The effect you have on me. The effect you have on me, makes it really difficult to talk about how I feel",
Cristina sat on her bed, the boy doing the same thing. She just looked at him, Luke taking deep breaths.
" Okay, that's still not a reason as to why you stopped talking to me for 2 months?",
Luke nodded, " I know. Look, after spending the first two months together at school, I realized that I'm never gonna love someone as much as I love you",
All of a sudden, Cristina felt like she was in high school again, and Luke was confessing his feelings to her in her bedroom, while their families were upstairs.
" And that's scary. I'm barely an adult, and I can't picture myself with anyone else. Like, ever", he said, " And I'm worried that I'm just gonna mess it up again. That me moving for hockey is gonna hold you back, and ruin our relationship. I'm seriously in love with you, Cris. You're all I talk and think about, and I'm pretty sure Rut is sick of hearing about it",
Cristina laughed a bit, Luke immediately feeling a smile creep onto his face.
" I know that's a really shitty reason to stop talking to you, and I'm really sorry. I'm just scared of ruining us, of ruining you and you leaving",
" Luke, you can't ever ruin us. And you definitely can't ruin me, you're never getting rid of me", she said laughing, " I know that if we were to try again, you moving wouldn't change a thing. It just sucks that you can't try and see that",
He shook his head, " I can see that. I'm seeing that, like, right now. I'm seeing it. Trust me",
Cristina laughed at the eagerness in his voice, Luke laughing and shaking his head a bit.
" Okay, then what's the problem?",
" There isn't a problem, Cris. My problem is that I'm so obsessed with you, that I'm scared",
Just like that, it really felt like they were in high school again. Cristina just grabbed his face gently, pressing a kiss onto his lips. Luke felt like he was going to explode, never before being so nervous but also relieved in his life.
Cristina pulled away from him, Luke's touch lingering on her lips and face.
" Then don't be scared, Hughes",
a/n
I can't have them not
talking for to long guys😏
