1703 days
lately,
i have been
catching myself
envying.
they have
what i so want.
everyday
that you are not here,
i am tried.
every waking day,
i want to ditch this place.
i want to go explore
and stumble upon a haven
for us to call home.
i am exhausted.
but i will wait,
for as long as you need me to.
however,
i am tired.
this is all we have known.
i feel as though
we are stuck.
and yet,
my love,
there is no one
i would rather be stuck with.
i would lie down
and suffocate
and descend into my demise,
willingly;
so long as,
you were laying with me.
i am ready for
a new beginning.
has someone
forgotten to turn the page?
i miss you so deeply.
even when you are here,
holding me closely,
i am taken
by this force of longing.
because deep down,
i know,
our hours are dwindling.
the clock will never stop ticking.
i plead with God
for more time with you,
since most of it has been stolen.
has our love not proven
to stand the test of time?
do we not deserve to be together?
this love will not fail.
is that not enough?
for we are:
"...two separated fools that really ought to share their foolishness together."
- Bret Harte
