Love Again

XI

XI

I guess just friendship wasn't that bad. Sa tingin ko naman maibibigay ko kahit pagkakaibigan man lang. Seeing him smiling like that... parang natutuwa na din ako.

I somehow felt his struggle with me din naman. Malimit nakakunot nuo nya and as if stiff. Katulad ng kumakain kami. Sharing our food. He seemed so rigid and unsure what he will do.

Pero tnry pa din nya. "Can i ask you something?" Tanong ko habang nagpapahinga muna kami sa may table.

"Bring it on your questions." He said confidently.

"Pano mo naisipan na you need to change your perspective with women. Sabi mo you hate women pero ang tingin ko ga sau womenizer." I asked frankly.

"Sakatunayan nyan ang aking ama ang nagpasok sakin sa therapy na ito sa isang kaibigang psychiatrist nya. 3 years nakong nagpapagamot sa kanya. Pero ngaun lang ako naging motivated na sumunod sa kanyang advice." Then came closer to me at dahan dahang lumapit sa aking mukha habang malumanay na nakahawak sa aking baba. That made me stiff -- frozen to my place. "Fyi, I'm not a womanizer, i just happened to like to f*ck around with worthless ones." Then smiled slyly that made me boil into burning blood.

Hinampas ko nga ang kamay nya away from my chin sabay tayo. "Ang bad breath mo. Sheeet! Dyan ka na nga." At naglakad papalayo. Actually his breath was so wonderful, enticing sending jolts all over my body lalo na ang deep voice nya. Dinahilan ko na lang ung bad breath kasi ng shawarma na may sibuyas.

"Hey you b**ch!!!" Sigaw nya sa likod ko. "Tang*** ka! Sinong tinatawag mong bad breath ha." Sabay testing pa nya ng hininga nya sa palm nya sabay amoy.

"Kumain kaya tayo ng sibuyas pinadamihan ko pa naman dun sa shawarma. Kaya ang lakas ng loob mo." Sabi ko habang natatawa tawa sa itsura nya habang inaamoy pa din ang hininga.

Kumuha na ako ng small cart na kasya lang ang dalawang basket. Inuna ko ang minty gum at binuksan na agad para makakuha kami. Binigyan ko sya at nagsimula na kaming magshopping ng mga pagkain na pwedeng lutuin.

Bumili pa sya ng red wine. Feel daw nyang magpasta kami and bread tapos red wine. Susyalin na dinner lang. Haha. Sumangayon naman ako.

Ang dami namin napamili fruits vegetables meats, chicken, mga palaman tinapay, snacks at iba pa. Sana di to magkandabubulok sa aking ref.

Bumili din kaming ice cream we settled sa strawberry flavor. Hmmmm.

Natapos na kami mamili at umuwi na din. He was so masculine how he lifts everything na pinamili namin sa isang big cart. His muscles were protesting through his tight sleeve. Payatin syang lalaki pero kitang kitang may mga muscles sya.

"Pwede wait lang. I'll just have a smoke. You want one too?" He asked.

"I don't smoke. And I don't like smoke. And even find men unattractive when smoking. " mataray kong sabi. "Iwanan mong bukas ang aircon ng sasakyan please. I won't be waiting for you here in the blazing heat." He politely do so. Pero nagproceed pa din sa pagssigarilyo.

I played the radio habang inaantay sya. It was their song started to play in the station i was in.

I didn't know the title was but it was indeed catchy. Pero it was still about a man playing around with different women who came to him. And ditch them after a good time s3x.

Nang nasa gitna na ng song biglang sumakay na sya ng sasakyan. "How can you be such a d**k in every song you write? Ang ganda ng music how it was put together pero lyrically it was rubbish." Ratatat ko.