~𝐌𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬/𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬/𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐬!~ {[𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃]}

~N x MD! Reader - Fluff☁️~

requested by @SimpyStarr again, thanks for requesting again lol
(Y/N) here has PTSD here and so N comforts them like the good boi he is
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~2nd POV~

its been a while

you haven't been at base for a while. you haven't even seen your own teammates in a long while. the guilt was just, killing you, on the inside

you wanted to apologize to them,,for hurting them and their families. but you possibly just couldn't.

the guilt of killing the innocent (worker drones🤸‍♂️) was just killing you.

you were walking further and further away from the base and away from the spiral made out of those worker drones you and the others killed.

your head hanging low, you were hungry and knew you were gonna start overheating soon, but you didnt care

you eventually stopped in your tracks and collapsed onto the ground, not doing anything, just laying there.

as you were laying there, you kinda just wriggled into the show that you landed on until your body was sorta covered with it.

but soon enough you felt pretty tired, so you soon fell asleep. as you slept, more and more snow covered your body, leaving only your head lights to be bright and shining, until they weren't and you fell asleep.

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eventually, you were awoken to the sound of someone shouting, someone shouting your name. it was a male voice, it of course was n

you heard him, but you didn't bother to move from your spot, you laid there covered in snow and the only thing exposed from the snow was your tail and the bright lights of your eyes (or head balls idk lmao)

eventually he landed right behind you. he notices the large pile of snow and immediately knew it was you

"huh, wonder where (y/n) is?" N said as he walked around the pile of snow you were covered in

"they're nobm here.." you responded as a murmur

"huh, ok, guess i'll have to look somewhere else" n sat next to the pile of snow and stayed there a bit before speaking again

"are you ok?" he simply asked, you murmured in response

"what was that?" he asked

"nubing.." you say as you adjust your body a bit, some snow falling off

"(y/n), you wanna talk about it?" n stood and and looked down at you, debating whether or not to pick you up from the snow

"no n, im fine, your fine, everybings fime." you mutter

n eventually just picked you up from your snow pile as your body dangles down a bit, your still kinda curled up though

"cmon (y/n), you haven't been at the spirl in a while, whats up?"

"nothing n!" you spoke up as you crossed your arms, your legs up against your chest and your tail just slightly waving side to side

silence

awkward silence?

you rose your voice at him, he was silent a bit, you were too

eventually he spoke up again

"whats wrong (y/n)?" he wasnt gonna leave you alone

"ugh, fine!" you finally gave in as you looked at him, he's just innocently staring at you

"so... i've been feeling really, guilty, lately.. and just seeing those frightened faces on those workers i've killed.. its, sad, to see them like that, and i've also felt pretty lonely lately and as i go to try to see the workers and apologize, they look at me like a monster and i get all angry and i end up killing them then the guilt came back and i feel really bad and and i-" you ranted to n, talking really fast, but he cut you off by hugging you

you started to get all teary-eyed (if thats possible) and sobbed in n's arms, you wrapped your arms, legs, and tail (bc u were still dangling from n's grasp and all). he held you tight and let you cry on his shoulder

"i see.. but you'll have to still kill some drones in order to live though? then again, i haven't killed a few drones myself in a while.." he says as he pats your head

"i have a friend that could maybe help with the overheating situation! how about i bring you to her and we could ask her?" n offered as he held you up, pulling you away from the hug, though still holding you

"sure.. i guess, that sounds great, lets do it" you reply with a smile on your face

"great! lets go then!" n says as he puts you on his back and flys away, into the un-KNOWWWWWWWN, INTO THE UNKNOWN!!!!!!! (srry i had to)
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a/n: welp, thats all:D also srry i got your request out a week late😔 i was busy and my birthday was this week and all, but anyways, gimme more requests so i can write them, i rlly enjoy writing them:D also how would you guys like it if i wrote my own book? would you guys read it? let me know, anyway, i'll see you soon my little shits😘 LOVE YA❤️❤️

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