My head is spinning with decisions i gotta make, i didnt expect to be so conflicted about this fight, i did not expect to be so scared about leaving her behind with jenny, i mean jenny is great with her but just my motherly instincts are kicking in and its enabling me from doing what i gotta do, i know i have to do what i gotta do but how could i be expected to leave my new born child and go save the world from total destruction, which brings the other side of me to ask what if i dont save the world from total destruction and fail to protect my family, but i cant leave her side, i already lost to much and thats what scares me most what if i loss them all....conflicted is what im feeling right now
"this isnt happening!" i sighed frustrated pulling my hair, i was alone in the other room thinking, Evangeline is with the others being smooched with love, while i was in here pulling out my hair
"crystal?" i sat on the bed sighing frustraded
"come in" i said to anna she opened the door and walked in with a smile on her face
"shes just so adorable, i wanna just squeeze her little cheeks!" she said making a pinching sign and i rolled my eyes smiling
"she is isnt she...which just makes this really hard!" i plop down the bed holding my head
"you still fighting with yourself?" she asked coming to sit on the bed with me
"we told you we can handle this, just take care of Evangeline" she said i shook my head
"i want to be there anna, i want to fight him get it over with so i could move on with my life with out looking back every second thinking his gonna jump out and attack, i want to see his eyes void of life and know that it is over" i put my arm behind me using my elbows to support my body then i looked at her
"im scared out of my mind anna, i dont know what to do, im scared to fight him and im scared of leaving her here" she looked back at the door for a second and looked at me
"i am scared too crystal, but i know that with or without you we will finish this...i promise!" i could see that she was conflicted too, she knew that even without me they wont stand a chance cause they only have sam who is strong and powerful but they dont have me the most powerful of them all, and she knew that what i said is true
"i can see it in your eyes anna and you know how it ends with out me, this is my fight anna no matter how many times you all say its yours too, i know you all have reasons to fight but mine is bigger than all of you combine, he wants me he doesnt want you guys, you would just be casualties and i cant let that happen" she looked mad but tried to hide it
"what do you want us to do sit back and watch you die?" she asked her voice a little strained
"have some confidence in me anna, im not just gonna walk up to him and say here you can kill me and have my heart" she looked away and i could tell she was about to go nuts and cry but she was trying to hold them back, i know i was being mean but i cant keep pretending anymore
"anan, i know your mad at me but what im saying is the truth and you know it, all im asking is step back and let me do this, i cant fight with you guys cause i will surely die trying to protect you all" she was quiet and still looking away
"please anna, i need to be focused and alert if im gonna win this, and i need to feel ok that my sister is here watching over my daughter, i need that of you anna...please" my voice soften now and i could see her shoulders slightly moving, she turned around with tears in her eyes and her lips quivering
"just promise me one thing" i nod
"come back" i know i shouldnt promise her this cause i do not know how it will end
"i will try" i said and she shook her head furiously
"no...come back!" she said firmly tears falling from her eyes i took her hand in mine and looked her in the eyes
"i promise" i said then she nods squeezing my hand
"ok" i gave her a small smile and hugged her
"its gonna be fine" i said stroking her hair
"its gonna be fine" there was a knock on the door and sams voice came through
"you alrite?" he asked
"yeah we're fine" i said i pulled anna away making her look at me
"they cant know" i said she nods closing her eyes
"i wont say a word" she said opening her eyes i nod
"wipe your face and lets go spend sometime together" she nods and started wiping her face, i sat there finally coming to a decision, i will fight alone the urge of staying with my daughter still lingered but the urge to protect her was even stronger and knowing that she is loved and taken care of made me alittle at ease, we walked out putting fake smiles on our faces today was a best day, everyone just hanging out and relaxing, it was the most definitely the best day.
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Eternal Awakening: Find Me (Book 2: Awakening series)
Vampire(sequel to lost soul) Crystal Scott was sent to her death by the fates 6months ago, but seeing as she is willing to sacrifice herself for her people she was sentenced to be a lost soul, she is to live as a regular vampire in a city she requested, a...
