Forever In My Heart

Chapter 45

⭐️“Sometimes you have to make peace with the fact that you are the villain in someone else’s story. Even if you thought you were doing the right thing. You don’t get to tell people how to narrate their experience.”⭐️
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I keep pressing on Lisa's name on my phone and hanging up again.

I need to talk to someone, I've been on the brink of tears ever since I got home.

I may have put on a brave face today, but it was a very fragile one. I just want to hide under the blanket and spend my evening crying.

I cried enough over my parents' death to know that it doesn't change anything, except making you sink deeper into sadness. Especially if you're alone.

I decide on calling my friend. I let it ring for a moment and fall on her voicemail box.

I press my phone against my chest and stare at the ceiling.

I feel lonely. So lonely...

I curl up on the sofa and look out at the clear night sky. I slowly pull up my little blanket.

I guess I look a state. I must even look scary. I shudder.

A tear pearls on my cheek, then another. I sniff.

Suddenly my phone rings, it's Lisa calling back. I hesitate for a moment before picking up.

Lisa: "Hey, there sweetie!"

Lexi: "Hello..."

My voice is shaky, unrecognizable.

Lisa: "...Is everything okay?"

The dreaded question, one that should never be asked when things aren't good.

Lexi: "No, it's not."

The last word gets caught in a hiccup caused by my sobbing.

Lisa: "Oh... what's wrong gorgeous? Is it that Jenny who got you in this state?"

I feel Lisa ready to put on her armor to avenge me.

Lexi: "No..."

Lisa: "Ryan...?"

Lexi: "Yes..."

This time, my voice distorts pathetically.

Lisa: "You want me to come round? I can catch a bus and in half an hour I'm with you."

I don't want her to see me in this state. It could get her worried.

Lexi: "No... I just wanted to have you on the phone."

I can tell that she disapproves but she doesn't insist.

Lisa: "Well... what happened?"

Lexi: "It's so pitiful that I'm almost ashamed to tell you."

Lisa: "Sweetie... You know you can tell me anything."

I sigh half crying. My mobile's screen is soaking as well as my blanket.

Lexi: "The place where he took me the first time, where I thought it was his home..."

I pause. I close my eyes trying to control my sobs.

Lexi: "It was his bachelor pad. A place where he takes them all! It's not where he really lives..."

Lisa: "Oh no..."

Lexi: "I couldn't believe it, either. I really didn't think he was that kind of man."

Lisa: "Did he explain?"

Lexi: "He tried to, but I really didn't want to listen to him."

Lisa: "Did you find out last night?"