Poetry for who needs it

Mom.

I'm sorry mom,
I'm sorry
for not being the son you wanted...
the daughter you wanted.

And I know that I make you cry,
but mom don't worry about me...
do like everybody else
and just ignore the fact that I'm not ok,
ignore my signs
and my tears,
my lies,
my fake smiles,
be like everyone else.

I'm sorry for disappointing you,
for not making you proud,
for not treating you the way you deserve,
for not appreciating everything
that you do and have done for me.

I wish I was different,
I'm sorry mom,
I really I am.