2:02 am, the 3rd of June on a Wednesday
// unfair: it's as if the path i've chosen is one that automatically pins me as a horrible person. as if there was a secret panel or discussion board that surveyed me 24/7 and as soon as i chose to believe in something that was an abnormality, it was as if the world was about to end and they decided that so was i. //
// absence: it was extremely uncalled for that you left, that you became an absence. and as much as i try and justify the reasons for you to stay i come to realise how stupid i sound and how selfish i seem. you're chasing your dream, you're chasing a path laid out for you, your destiny and what am i doing? typing on keys that have been tear-soaked for months on my living room couch at 2:02am because i miss you and i was terrified to let you know of it. //
// dehydration: my mouth is dry, my eyes no longer water when i become emotional. and i don't know if it's from not drinking enough water or if it's simply from excessive swallowing and crying because it's all i seem to be doing lately. i'm trying to get through each day twenty four hours at a time and i'm having trouble trying to find things to pass the time. //
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if i don't say this i'll explode // a book of poetry
Poetrya book of poetry // because if i don't say this i'll explode, there's too much white noise in my head that needs to be transferred to the blank spaces in the sky and the unfulfilled breaths of the air we breathe. 20 year old girl from Melbourn...