7. Comparisons

567 6 0
                                    

I spent all of Saturday thinking about the previous day. It had been amazing, but I had to remember that I had a boyfriend. I could not use the, “he is just a friend” excuse for James anymore. Friends do not normally kiss in the street, last time I checked. I did not know what to do. Who did I love more? Tyler or James? No, I couldn’t do this to myself. I had known Tyler since I started middle school; our relationship had only recently taken off though. I had known James for less than a week and he was probably crazier for me than Tyler was. . James didn’t even know I had a boyfriend. He probably thought we were more serious than we were, because he thought I was actually single before he came around. I felt horrible. What I had done with James was a mistake, and if he found out about Tyler, he probably would not want to be with me, and Tyler would me mortified if he were to find out about James. My phone was right next to me, I could easily call James and tell him that it was all a mistake and I could not see him anymore. I could also just as easily ring up Tyler and tell him that my feelings were in different places now, but it would hurt Tyler so much. Now did it all came down to whom did I want to hurt less? When I thought about this question, there was an easy answer, but I did not want to let go of the other person. Nothing was making this decision easy.

Later that day I received a text from Tyler saying,

Hey! Is your family thing over? Do u wanna come over later?

This was sweet of him, to make sure everything was okay. Unlike James who had not gotten back to me since our date. I hesitated on Tyler’s message for a moment. I still needed to resolve my issue. Although maybe comparing how I am around Tyler and how I was around James would help put things in perspective. I had to be the leader of this date though. So I replied,

How about u come over here?

This sounded like a good idea. I needed to spend time with Tyler anyway. He replied then,

sure. When?

I wondered for a moment. I still wanted the day to think things over, so I said,

is it ok if u come 2moro? How’s 6?

Tyler replied very quickly saying,

see ya then! ;)

I smiled. I was happy to have him coming over. It would be like good times before this incident ever started.

Love Over BetrayalWhere stories live. Discover now