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part 6 - Lily's diary

⚠️ tw: suicide mention, cigarette use, sh

timeline: 3 days after the movie // kiss

Quick Lily POV:

I haven't been feeling good lately, more or less I mean i've felt depressed more then usual. It's getting bad again.. I think as I look down at my sleeves. I roll them back down and put down the blade.

Billy POV:

I think Lily's boxes are all finally gone, and she's all settled in. I smiled. My sister is finally back. I am always so happier when she's around. She is my sun, my moon, my stars, hell she's my whole sky.

I felt whole again...but I could tell something was off with her.

I looked around and shrugged off the feeling. I went to the living room and sat down. I dropped my phone next to the couch.

As I went to grab it, I saw a black notebook with stickers all over it.
The front off the book read 'Lily's Diary'
it had a picture of a heart on it. The heart had a bunch of drawn shatters, but had real band-aids over some of the shatters.

It felt wrong to read it, but she has been acting weird I want to make sure she is okay.. I turn to the most recent entry.

A/N: I used the lyrics for 'Cigarettes out the window' by TV Girl !!

My girl Lily used to always smoke..

Smoke?! She's too young! I thought to myself.

Cigarettes when she couldn't sleep
She'd disappear for an hour and a half
And when she'd come back she'd brush her teeth

But I could still smell it on her raggedy tee

And I could taste it on her lips when we kiss

Kiss?! Who'd did she kiss?!

Poor little Lily used to always quit
But she never really quit
She'd just say she did

oh.. i finally figured it out.

My girl Lily used to always cut
her wrists sometimes it went a little deep

...

I wonder what she did when she got done
I guess she'd just bandage them up and reset the street

Poor little Lily, she wishes it was dark
But it's never really dark in Denver C.A.

"fuck..." I muttered as I started crying.

end of part 6 !!
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