As said in my insta post I'm gonna dye my hair because I'm stressing about hella stuff but I won't go into detail just know one of them is Ashtray being a dick head and my bsf turned out to be a bitch so uh yea let's dye my hair a Caramel type color with some blonde highlights!
"Maddy you have to actually mix it!!" I yell at Maddy because she wasn't mixing the dye "OHHH my bad I didn't know" she says and we both laugh at her "ok ok I'm gonna apply it" she says so I freeze and let her do it .
After 2 hours my hair was done I looked so pretty I was ready to go out and take pictures "omg gorgeous!!!" Maddy says and we walk back into my room to see ashtray sitting on my bed looking at the window "the fuck you want?" I say shaking my head "to talk" he says so I signal Maddy to come back later and she nods "ok so I wasn't saying you were a slut or you were a cheater I just have trust issues and I was confused on like if it was true or not I didn't wanna believe but you know I'm gonna at least consider it" he says standing up to face me "I get that but why wasn't me saying it myself not enough??" I ask "It was I just had second thoughts that weren't true ok?" He says holding my hands and I hug him and he pulls out of the hug and kisses me and pulls away before I could kiss back "I got my own Caramel frap now" he says smirking and I push him a little "Stopp" I say laughing at the nickname "ok ok I'm gonna take a picture rq brb" I say taking my phone and going out of the room to take a picture,
𝐊𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐲𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐚_
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After I posted the pictures I went back to my room and jumped on top of ash "ugh I'm so tired" I say rolling off "same" he says moving his hands around my waist and I cuddle him and eventually we fell asleep .
I woke up to ash's face and he looked so peaceful while he was sleeping , i pecked him on the forehead and got up to go put some clothes on , after putting on some joggers I came out the room and ash was gone so I just sat down and picked up my phone to see a text from my dad
𝑷𝒐𝒑𝒔 ! ---------------------------------------
𝑷𝒐𝒑𝒔 I need you home Something came up and i don't know If I'm gonna be ok without you
𝑲𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 What happened?? Are you ok??
𝑷𝒐𝒑𝒔 Honey I'm in the hospital
𝑲𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 Packing my stuff now love you I'll call you when I'm on the plane
𝑷𝒐𝒑𝒔 Please explain to your mom , love you
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When I seen the text my heart dropped I gathered everything I could leaving most of my things behind while tears pour out of my face knowing I'm not with my dad and he could die from something I don't even know about if I was there he would be ok I blame myself for leaving him , I rush down the stairs trying to find any plane to my dad as fast as possible "hunny what's wrong?" My mom asked "d-dads in the hospital and I-I have to go mami" I say out of breath and she rush's over the hug me and I cry out into her arms "it's ok mija I'll find you a plane ticket back by sun down and you can leave Tomorrow go rest ok?" She says and I nod going back to my room where I see Maddy "hey I need he- what happened??!?" She says seeing me crying and I can't even form any words I just lay in her arms drifting to sleep .
I can't help but think while I was partying and kissing boys and losing my v card my dad needed me more then ever and I completely forgot about him , if I wasn't being such a whore of a daughter I would be there with my dad right next to him on the hospital bed holding his hand making sure he was alright now I don't know if he's gonna live to see another day and I can't even see him I just wanna run all the way across to world just to see him but there isn't much I can do but pack and be ready for whatever happens .
