i just keep telling myself, "i'm never gonna fall in love again."
but then,
your notification lights up my screen,
along with my face.
and i can't help but hurry to open it.
i cant help but smile everytime i see yours.
i tell myself that you're, "better with someone else."
but then,
i find a video or an old picture that you sent to me,
and i feel that feeling again.
like when we were twelve,
and just two stupid kids in love.
well, i guess at least i was in love,
because i still cant see myself with anyone other than you.
i still cry at losing you.
i still struggle to feel things when it doesn't involve you.
i still feel bad at the way i never actually showed you how much i loved you.
im trying to let you go.
i really am.
but i cant, because i love you,
and i would never lie to you about that.
